so.. yeah.. the entry on Aug 20th...
history repeating itself. nearly the exact same situation... in fact, the guys have the same fucking first name and last initial.
WHEN AM I GOING TO LEARN?!
i am so stupid. and ugly. and lame. and unintersting. and dispossible. and not good enough.

i really hope no one reads this stupid fucking journal anymore.

So, here is the thing...
There are 3, possibly 4 guys who really like me, who want to date me.
But I dont want any of them, even though I try and give them a chance. I just cant. I'm just not interested. Why?
I wish I knew.

It might have something to do with that one person that I loved.. and can't forget.

What is wrong with me? Can someone please tell me so I can just save my engeries?

Here I thought I was a decent person to be friends with.. to have around. But turns out I am wrong.

I should probably sit in the corner and stare at a wall for the rest of my life.

Yes, Im throwing a pity party. get the fuck over it.

who am i?

i am ugly and stupid and wasted and hurtful and hurting and lonely and stuck in the past, stuck with my head in the sand, stuck in the middle of nowhere with noone.

If there is one lesson to be learned from old livejournal entries... its to guard your heart and never let anyone touch it.

Like a champion. As if it never stopped.  Everyday items. Sewing scissors are sharper than ones used to cut paper.  They can be hidden easily under bulky clothes.  Remember a medical examiner is going to be taking blood from your arm.  Short and thin. Like a pro.

So, it may seem, to the average reader of my livejournal, which is no one... that i have a terrible life. That is totally untrue, it just happens that I tend to rant in this journal, because, as stated before, no one reads it ( Read more... )

Fuck. Fuck me ( Read more... )

Note to self: Don't ever read his livejournal again. Ugh! I find things that should be forgotten. You wrote these out for me ( Read more... )

( I was the luckiest girl in the world )