I feel so many things at once, I don't know what to act upon what to ignore what to think about. I confused! But thats okay because everything is going great right now. A few days ago I didn't know what to think about my life. I thought about my life and how messed up it is. I kept thinking its all my fault. My life is fucked up because I made it ( Read more... )

Yesterday I posted a journal and it said a lot of things. It was an apology to a friend because I'm not a good enough person to say it to their face. But mainly I told one person that was and still is very important to me how I feel. Now that I've done that I wish I hadn't. In letting those feelings out I think I turned our friendship around an ( Read more... )

Lately I have had feelings for one girl inpaticularly. Well not reallly lately but they have been more publicized and in my face recently giving me reason to think and overview them. I know that she is probably going to read this but I don't care any more. I think these feelings being bottled up inside me is the reason for my emo outburst and my ( Read more... )

Okay who this is directed towards knows who they are. This is not meant as a hate note or whatever more like a warning. But I have my own personal life or love life or whatever the fuck you want to call it. And that is my business and my business ONLY! So I would rather like it if you guys would just stay out of it. I have no problem if you don't ( Read more... )

Man I'm kind of up set. Yesterday I had the best time with Ash and today she asked me what I was doing after school and I was like well I got detention. Well after detention I took the C-rolla home only to find out that I had to take it to the shop to get the power steering fixed.Then I tell my parents that I want to apply to SCAD and we get into ( Read more... )

Alright this day completely rocked out! Okay first I go to school and I know exactly what I'm going to work on all day! I had this wicked idea for a painting. I like eyes a whole lot. I believe that the eye is such a beautiful thing its one of a kind and if you look into someones eyes you can tell so much! They also look really wicked cause they ( Read more... )

Man today was the first day of school.It sucked! I wanna know what love is. I want to feel love! I don't think I ever felt a real love before and I want to feel it! Not just an emphatuation with someone...like really caring for someone and someone who feels the same way for me! I think that would be the best thing in the world. Plus im really h*$ny ( Read more... )

As many of you know I used to be a really bad kid! I stole probably $1000 worth of stuff that I would usually just disregard, I smoked pot, and I just wasn't a really good person. Well I'm proud to say that I quit doing all of the above. I quit stealing after like freshmen year and I quit smoking pot last summer. But I also quit doing something ( Read more... )

Man I just added some pictures to my journal! The one of me when I was three in my superman pajamas yeah that picture is awesome! And this is all thinks to one person! Winters who is the coolest for letting me use his scanner. Man I feel really good lately. I haven't had to spend that much time around my parentals so I think thats why, man they ( Read more... )

Man last night was a night! Me, shmev, patti, and christian all went to see The Last Samurai. It was a really good movie other than the fact that all shmev did was think about sam(his girlfriend)! He was going to hangout with her earlier but then she called and said she was going to go to a party off of Btown Rd. with some friends from work! But ( Read more... )