today a new life begin to me, I join the gym, eat well, and I know this is the start of something big. I can do it, I have faith that I can with Gods help, I will...

why God let me feel so bad, why doesnt He make something to change it or to stop it? is it so hard, I want to dye, just to stop this sadness, just to dont feel so sad and losser. I want to live but Id rather dye to continue living like this, because its so hard to wake up every morning knowing that nothing will change everything will stay the same ( Read more... )

I just feel so empty, its so hard. Yesterday I came home and my sis had took my tv to the livingroom, if she can take it out she can take it back, but no she didnt and I was so angry because she knew that I was coming home. And today I ask my mother why the tv was in the livinroom and she said you know why and started to jeld at me like if I had ( Read more... )

so yesterday I was 169 and ready to accept that I will allways be fat, but today Im back, why will I settle for something I hate, I can have everything I want the only thing I have to do is to work for it. I will be thin Im sick of being a cow, of being the fatter in class, I dont want that anymore, so far I had a coke so far so good. Hope to get ( Read more... )

ok, liquid diet today, so happy hope to do it right and not binge. Well I ate really bad on thruesday and friday but I was so sad about being 166, I know stupid me instead of doing something good, I decided to eat. Why I cannt said ok if Im not loosing weight I wont eat, but no like Im not loosing weight Ill eat and get fatter, I really hate myself ( Read more... )

166.5 life just sucks, its like I cannt get down from 166, Im not eating that bad, my body should help me to. The only good thing is that Im back to what I weighted 3 years ago, Im just mad at my self why didnt I decide to loose weight then, no the stupid of me had to wait until I got to 188 to realize that Im a cow and cannt continue life the way ( Read more... )

so today I eat out, but we were in a courtfood so I a lot of choices and Im glad to say I ate a salad, my friends ate junk food, but like Im like a vegetarian I choose a salad instead of a fishburger from burger king. And after they wanted to go for deseert but then decided to leave it for another day. Im so happy today Im back at 166 after almost ( Read more... )

I really dont know how but I was 166.5 this morning thats good, after the awful weekend I thought I was gone be like 170 or more. So I hope to get to 165 by the end of this week but my period is coming so that means extra weight, that sucks, its like just having the period wasnt bad enough you have to gain weight to ( Read more... )

today 167 it just sucks, I might be 166 by saturday and Ill go home then and gain more weight. I was 166 by friday last week, now is thrusday thats means that Im not loosing any this week only recovering of las weekend ( Read more... )

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