i am not crazy ( Read more... )

It's like once I start to hurt you're done. yet countless months I would do my best to cheer you up, hold strong. And the moment I break, the moment I stumble, you give up. Not that I'd necessarily want anything different. Becca's crying on the step, and you leave because it's too much. Maybe I'm just different. Maybe my problem is that I just can' ( Read more... )

With your starry eyes ( Read more... )

I dunno if i told anyone this, or should. Maybe at the end ( Read more... )

So it's like I haven't posted in a while ( Read more... )

Who was it that said "your first love never leaves you"? Because she hasn't. And I'm nostalgic for these things, back before I got lost, and almost died. Back when I felt like love was this thing that was a gorgeous flower with an army of thorns around it, when I'd open doors for all girls, and I wasn't some stupid shovanist pig that just wanted ( Read more... )

And girl it's like every time I go out of my way for you, I just get hurt more. I've found my passion again, and you don't see it. Only liked me when I was lost, so now we're tripping over double-standards. You, with your gold, and myself with tarnished iron, if there were such a thing ( Read more... )

and now i look like the idiot because i jumped to conclusions. fuck it all. still.

I called Hannah today, just to say bye before i went to Maine, because i thought she'd want me to, plus she had called me earlier and i was returning it. There was music in the background, and she said "oh, actually i'm with a friend from work, we're playing some games and stuff. But ill call you when i get home?" i said okay. then she said "i love ( Read more... )

Do you know what you're doing to me? Breaking me, cutting me down... i threaten my family, snap at my friends. I'm not happy anymore, irritable. You pull me back, to hurt me closer, but then it's not like you're trying to be hurtful, because you apologize after. And i know you're life is tough, but how do i say all of ours are, and the sooner you ( Read more... )