Watching the Sleeping Lover ( Read more... )

hey everyone. i haven't posted in forever. my life is well.... ok, actually. drama that was is now over. and no new drama has started. so i get a break. things with me and that boy sucked for a long time, and we fought a bit and no it is kinda yet to be resolved :/ so yeah. great. i am really bored this summer so anyone who wants to do anything ( Read more... )

so i'm sitting in phoenix games listening to people talk about what flavors condoms should come in. it's very funny. and kinda gross hahaha. but other wise i'm doing ok. the play is soon and i should be doing lines. but i'm not. oh well

there is like 9 days till our shows go up, we aren't ready at all. and so i'm really stressed out. and on top of that i am sick. so it sucks. Jarrell got me sick. i went over to his house, just so i could see TJ, and he didn't even come over. i was so pissed. at least i talked to him on the phone that night. i miss him a lot. and i'm annoyed ( Read more... )

so i got up at 7:30 to get all ready so i could look good for the boy who said he was going to be here. and hes not. and he wont be there tomorrow cause he's going skiing. and i want to die. i have not seen him since January and i want to kill myself.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH DIE.

i hate winter.

FUCK MY LIFE MY DAY WAS AWESOME AND NOW MY FUCKING DIRECTOR FUCKING SWITCHES MY ROLLS!!!!!!!!!!!!! FROM COSTA RICA ON IM!!!!!!!!!!GRRRRRRRRRRR! WHAT THE FUCK? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

so my mom goes away for about a week right? she says anyone can come over and i'm letting you stay with ani and tam. sooo woooohoooooooo! party is on. only not so much. i had been feeling a little sick before this week right, but i figure hey its nothing so i get my drink on and my body is like nuuhuuuuuh. i do not think so, vomit that shit up and ( Read more... )

i can't do this I'm not strong enough. i miss him so much. have no idea. i can't take this anymore. i just don't want to think about this at all. and it's hard. i'm trying sooooooooo hard to be happy and smile and be over this. but i'm not. and i wont be, for a long time ( Read more... )

well. he wasn't in today. so he probably wont be there tomorrow. my two friends are soooooooo cute that i might melt into mush. i love it to death. but at the same time its really hard to be around. not just them, everyone, everyone happy. cause you know i'm just the bitter emo child. and valentines day is like half a month away. and i hate it. a ( Read more... )

yeah so today was pretty good. right up to the part where my mom started talking about Eli, and i had to leave the room cause i was upset and crying. that was fun. god i think about him every second. like everything makes me think about him, trust me my brain can link anything. god its the most annoying thing. anyway. abby is probably coming over ( Read more... )