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a tough one 2 chew...
Success ( Read more... ) -
what do i really want...
Kelley called again tonight...begging me to move out there again. I was thinking seriously..well more serious than usual back in April...late April. Damon and I sort of kind of patched things over when he left, and now things are great./ But I need to start focusing on whats keeping me here. My bestie & my antique bestie. I can say I hate it here ( Read more... ) -
what do I mean to you?
Honestly Im almost wondering where he thinks our relationship is headed. Im sick of allowing myself to excuse him when he can be sooooo inconsiderate, I always say ohhh its because this is his first real relationship. So I was thinking more about it last night while we laid in bed watching "tough Love ( Read more... ) -
my life as we know it.
my life is tragic.. Another day goes by. Matt got locked up Tuesday morning. My one day off a week. Domestic Violence they say. Its what I know, its who I've become. I live to fight with him, to make up, to love eachother, to live.. whether some say its not kosher, we did it. We didnt care. I did at times, i got soo frustated with him and his ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: In The Money
If you won $100 this afternoon, what would you do with it? MANICURE/ PEDICURE! AND A MASSAGE... A DAMN CHEAP ONE!! -
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what is a relationship when there is no trust ( Read more... ) -
crazy fuckin day alreadyyyyy
Did it again... another Ian.. yet I kept Ian out of everyone else's way but my own. Its like I CRAVE Abuse! I cant even help the tears from falling anymore. its like WHY bother.... Why is it that Id do anything for ANYONE and what do i get in return. I feel like one of those nasty old trailer ladies who take beatings everyday cuz it might just get ( Read more... ) -
post secret
Please stop trying to ruin my life. What you want, is not what I want for my life, just let me be ( Read more... ) -
happy from within
so as odd as this sounds, im finally "getting" things.. Like Im sooo sick of this angry at life.. bipolar people. Like I AM TRUELY sorry ur life sucks.. or u want to make others' a living hell. But back off barbie. im soo sick of THESE people trying their damnedest to drag ME down with them. Im open minded.. i am a free spirit. I see life as.. u ( Read more... ) -
so much to think about.. so little space
So hes back again.. back in my life... i wasnt expecting him for another 5 months, I preped myself for this.. started that program, was doing really well.. wanted to get hott by may for him, for me. finally doing things for myself. moved on with my life.. well now hes back. hes adjusting and im just not, its SO hard. Hes having a hella time, and me ( Read more... )