This is beyond my usual blah blah blah life sucks rant. At this point, I can't think of a single thing that is going right for me. When I'm with friends, I'm clingy, whiny, and generally obnoxious....more so that usual. When I'm alone I get really lonely and angry. I don't really give a damn about much of anything anymore. It's nothing suicidal, I ( Read more... )

The college shit has finally ended. Only, for me it has truly just begun. I applied to nine schools, seven of which I had to audition for. I was accepted to one of the two non-auditioned schools, (Brandeis) and was rejected from all seven of the schools that I wasted a month and a ton of money flying around the country to impress. Technically, I ( Read more... )

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I did it. I finished chapter four. It's super short for the amount of time it took, but I got a little burned out messing with it and just wanted it to be over. I have trouble writing long things. Anyway, it's all at www.freewebs.com/crossinglines ( Read more... )

I'm being productive, surprisingly. I should probably go eat and then sleep. Whatever. Here is the long-awaited third chapter of Crossing Lines.

( This one took me a little more time )

( Just because everyone else did it )

I am in a very dazed state right now, having not slept or eaten much lately. Plus I'm under the influence of ADD medications to keep me awake. Oh dear. Anyway, here is the second chapter, though I don't like it nearly as much as the first, but maybe that's because I'm sort of letting it go in it's own direction rather that controlling it.

( Chapter 2 )

I stayed up all night. I was engaged with Nabokov. he inspired me to try my hand at writing again. This time from a much more personal place. Anyone who knew my life well could identify those who I based my characters off of. I want to finish this novel. I don't expect it to be that good. I just want to finish something at some point in my life.

( The first installment )

Insomnia allows for time to think. I fear being alone. I don't just always surround myself with friends because it's fun to be with them...I just can't stand being alone with my thoughts. I become so negative with myself, and almost always wind up a little depressive. Fretting. Worrying. When I'm with friends I don't do that so much ( Read more... )

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