Every visit ends the same way. With nothing but pain. I don't know....maybe i still love him....it's far fetched...but he WAS my...first love...fuck. I'm so sick of fucking hurting over this person or that one...I wish for once I could do what is best for me without caring what others think....why in the hell does it matter to me anyways..what ( Read more... )

Do you ever just have random flash backs to a time that was better than now and it makes your stomach churn? Tis what I've been going through the last few days and I hate it...I really wish I could go back TO those times and not have to worry about hurting anyone...but I guess that'll never happen...*sigh*

She says most men her age want younger women ( Read more... )

i'm not sure if it's the weather or if it's just the fact that i'm changing, in a more unlikable fashion. whatever the case, i feel if something doesn't happen soon, everyone will be gone. i don't mean to piss everyone off...god knows the last thing i want is a confrontation...but it seems as though all i can do anymore, is anger everyone. i ( Read more... )

pitter patter...pitter patter
says the rain.
says my heart.

On night's like these...I want to crawl into bed, curl up, and cry. I ache, and my stomach hurts....i'm tired...and down....

i close my eyes ( Read more... )

I cut the ties with Kyle tonight. He hasn't been speaking to me since we broke up so I told him if he wanted to continue being this immature to just not bother trying to be my friend later. I still care about him, and will probably worry about him for awhile...but bottom line he's out of my life for good. I asked him if he remebered telling me ( Read more... )

So...i'm going to see kevin this weekend at IU and i'm totally stoked about it. I miss him so much...and i'm actually really looking forward to checking out the campus because i am considering going there this spring if for nothing else...to get away and take my gen eds....who knows...maybe i'll find what i'm looking for there ( Read more... )

Okay. So. I see now what it is that's going to make me happy and i'm going to do something about it. Hopefully it works out as good as it sounds like it's going too ( Read more... )

Rite...My life is so full of ups and downs lately i honestly don't know how to feel....I believe there are still feelings for kevin...no. i know there are. everytime i hear one of the songs i secretly considered "ours" my mind goes immidiately to him...i can't help it...i don't mean to even show it...but when he talks to me it just comes out....i ( Read more... )

She was so adored by everyone ( Read more... )