Everybody Hates Me

[nightcookie]

God, everbody hates me, I don't know why, but they do... I must have "HATE ME" in bold letters on my forehead. Well, I guess I should back up my everyone hates me story. You see, I got sick at work a little less than a week ago. I was ok all day untill I took some dieretics for that horrid time of the month. Soon after that I got nauseated and so

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[mourning_angel]

hmm
well
its a good thing that im nobody and not everybody cause i sure dont hate you. i like yas.

*hugs*
hopefully things get better for you sooner or later
you still run a group hun? im thinking of getting reinvolved or something.. i dunno..

i want ana back so badly.. but unless triggered.. i seriously dont think thats going to happen.

[nightcookie]

*hugs* Thanks for not hating me :) ...I give up for now on groups. I'm too busy, have so much shit to do, that I've been putting off for a lllooonnnggg.... time. My plans have been to train my horse as a 2 year old *she's 3 now*, to be in college by 16 years olf or at least before I'm 18 *4 months left untill I'm 18*, to live in an apartment on my own *parents house*, have a nicer car *still poor, and still driving a piece of shit, not that I don't like it though*, to be 80 lbs *102 lbs as of now*, and then to relocate to a bigger city *I can't leave, I don't know where to begin*. I'm so behind in my plans. I've been having trouble being Ana lately too. I have no motivation, I try, but I surcome to my weakness. All the friends I have now like to be fat and they are always eating yummy things, so I can't just watch without digging in. All I think about is food, it fuckin sucks. My Ana is going in the oposite direction. I'm thinking of making a home made tattoo gun, and tattooing ANA on my ankel, so I will always feel guilty if I pig

[cmage_88]

I don't hate you. *glomps*

[nightcookie]

Awww...*hugs*, thankies for not hating me :). What's a glomp?

[cmage_88]

It's a gigantor hug that squashes you. *O*

[nightcookie]

LMAO :)

[anonymous]

Honey, not everyone hates you. But you are not a lot of fun to be around if you incnovenience people all the time and they have to take care of you all the time. I mean, it's one thing if one cannot take care of themselves, but you are seventeen, right

[nightcookie]

I am an inconvenience, I know it. I don't mean to. I show love, but I've been really trying my best here lately. I give flowers and cards to my grandma on holidays, cards to my parents' presents on Christmas, things for birthdays, hugs if I'm not feeling paronoid of people, comfort and empathy when I gets the chance. My mom doesn't like flowers, cards, or anything except racing bikes and horse saddles, I can't afford to make my mom happy. She's not a lovey person. I got her a couple shirts that were $40 for mothers day. I was overeating when I wrote this entry, kinda sarcastic in a way, so I could see how stupid I was being thinking everyone hates me. Only a few people hate me, but those few people just drag me down so much to where I don't think of the people that are my friends, just that I'm hated. I guess it's inpossible to make everyone happy, but I want to. Friends come naturally, attracted to eachother for some reason, I guess, not by kissing someones ass. I don't know how I get friends, it just sorta happens, which is odd,

<3

[atomiccarebear]

I don't hate you! <3 And even at 102, you weigh much less than I do :/

Re: <3

[nightcookie]

Thank you *hugs*. It doesn't matter how much you weigh to me, your still my friend *hugs*... :)

[cmage_88]

Hey, are you going to graduation tomorrow? o.O'

[nightcookie]

*sigh*, no..