I hate being a control freak. Seriously, I feel that it ruins my life in a lot of ways. The worst part is it's something that is controllable, and I know everyone would just say "well don't do that!" or "don't feel that way, stop yourself!" but I can't. It's so ingrained into my head that I don't know any better and I ruin everything. Why can't I ( Read more... )

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I'm confused about a lot of things right now. I know what should be done but I have no willpower. Then I tell myself that it's nothing to act on ( Read more... )

Sometimes I honestly sit back and think about myself and realize I should be studied. I am ridiculous. If I honestly let the thoughts I have out into the open I wonder if people would even want to be friends with me, let alone date me. I can't decide how I feel about a lot of things and I want to understand why that is. Lately I've been trying to ( Read more... )

Yesterday I had a rude awakening and it made my heart ache. I went to a pumpkin carving party at the house of a girl I work with. It was all other Chili's employees. While I was at the party the hostess introduced me to her little cousin Jasmine. Jasmine was this insanely beautful little girl; reminded me of the child actress who played Jenny in ( Read more... )

...I am addicted to chicken caesar pita's at Chili's. I know this sounds silly, but it really is a problem! When I crave food it's like the first thing I think of, and it has been weeks. Now anyone who really knows me (which I'm realizing only certain people know this about me) knows that when I find a new food I become a tad obsessed with it... ( Read more... )

What a crazy week. All week long my dad was on the biggest wild goose chase for tix to the WVU game on Friday for Eli and I. Now keep in mind my father has a million connections...yet none of his bastard friends, connections, clients would give up any tickets (even though he's gotten them all a million tickets to numerous events of their choosing ( Read more... )

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