Why the fuck not? I can be whatever I want to be!

Feb 22, 2005 08:33

Highest Weight: 218 lbs ( Read more... )

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nikkiremembered February 22 2005, 09:57:51 UTC
Eh, alright, Just trying to hang in there. <3

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nikkiremembered February 22 2005, 09:59:49 UTC
LOL, no it's okay, don't worry about it. Congrats for even trying to do better. If you find yourself gaining weight, it could just be water and it will eventually drop. My advice is start out slow. Especially with the calorie content. start off at 300 cals per meal, then gradually increase to 440-450 with one 150 cal snack. Even little exercise will help. Take care luv xo <3

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sunnybeaches85 February 22 2005, 08:53:05 UTC
*hugs*

be strong. read your past journal entries. remember those days? there will be good days. there will be bad days. i believe you can do this. b/p is a nightmare i know..i b/p twice yesterday. once today already. i love love love love you...please dont let this spiral out of control again. you were doing great.

<3

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nikkiremembered February 22 2005, 09:56:31 UTC
*hugs*

I'm trying to hang in there. I've been in a rut lately. It's just I've been stuck at home doing nothing. So, I plan to hang out with more of my friends, then telling them that I'm 'sick' so I can stay home and b/p. It seems to me from what you've just wrote that you're b/ping has lessened. I hope all is well. I love you too, take care <3

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pixiehopper8 February 22 2005, 11:56:50 UTC
Call me!

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Hey Nikki beautytrapped February 22 2005, 15:11:31 UTC
Please dont take this the wrong way but what happened to your recovery? I thought you were getting better but you arent anymore. In a way you kind of gave me a little hope...and I guess I am just a little disappointed...but I am SOOOO glad that lost all that weight. It is so impressive. I wish I could get down, I am not though. I am about to go to the gym now.

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Re: Hey Nikki nikkiremembered February 27 2005, 14:06:45 UTC
Yeah, what the fuck happened. Serioulsy though, despite all the binging and purging, I have stopped myself a few times. Even when I want to fast, I stop myself, even when I want to binge and purge I stop myself, eat a balanced meal and go on with my life. I'm trying, yeah ok I've fallen back. But really, its not that bad. Everyday I a new day. I cant worry about tomorrow, that's for God to worry about. not me. I have to worry about right now. <3 Good luck

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Re: Hey Nikki thesillyheart March 3 2005, 02:07:46 UTC
Don't feel bad. I'm not disappointed in you. We all have our "fat" days. Good for you for getting control and stopping yourself when you are able.

Remember, never do more than you can expect yourself to do.

You've made excellent recovery so far. Please hang on to that.

You are strong and beautiful and I admire your diligence.

Love.

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