i am in so much pain. my back hurts so bad . my stomach hurts. i am in alot of pain right now . and to top it off and can't seem to get out of this depression mode that i am in . but at least i am appearing happy to the people who matter the most to me. i don't want to hurt them anymore with my drawn out stories of how depressing my life is and was ( Read more... )

i don't know why i am feeling the way i am , i feel horrible i just got done crying i know why i was crying but i can't tell anyone. i can't express myself.i am like zombie when i get near someone . no emotion other than happy and i am not happy so i don't know why i act like i am. i just don't want to make anyone feel bad i want it to be my ( Read more... )

today was an ok day,i woke up at 8:00 this morning and started to watch cartoons and then i went and woke lance up at 9:00 .i don't think he was to happy about being woke up 30 min early but ohwell. all of today we have just ben playing video games cleaning up and talking online. all in all this has ben a pretty decent day. ^.^

i just found out that i haven't made any sort of impact on my best friends life at all. i guess i never really payed attention.i should have tried harder to be a good friend i am a horrible person. i sure hope i have changed over the last 2 years.well i will have to try harder to be a better friend from now on.i suck!

today was just today i don't really know how to explain it.i woke up from mom telling to wake up and that we were leaving to go get my grandmothers mail while they are in idaho.well we left and i have ben arfuing with my mother all day because i wanna go over to my friend lance's house for the weakend but she sais i am still sick.i told her i wasen ( Read more... )

i feel like i am going to explode i have no one to talk to.i feel so alone i wish i had a girlfriend so bad.i wish i had never made that mistake so many years ago. i feel so bad for breaking up with ashley i diden't know what i was doing .maybe had i not let go she woulden't have let go of me.i miss the relationship we had so much but she will ( Read more... )

uhg today started kinda bad.i was to sick to go see my brother leave at the airport so i stayed home and slept and i have had a constant head ache all day long. but other than that i guess i am ok. i have ben practicing drawing anime and i am getting better but i will never be as good as my friend lance is. anyways i am feeling kinda crummy now. i ( Read more... )

i am so happy right now i don't even know why i just am happy happy i think ( Read more... )

hey everyone i am back my brother is going to be living in idaho
for the next few months and i get to use his comp as much as i want
while he is gone so i will still be here .i am happy today by the way seeing as how
his comp is super super fast .nothing else to report .

hello all sorry i haven't posted anything in a couple of days but the comp went on the fritz and i don't know when i will get it back from the shop well to all my friends who read this 2 lol sorry i haven't ben on hope your not mad at me or anything im sorry if something bad happened to yall or anything.even if i am gone though i will always be ( Read more... )