I can't stand drinking here. It only makes me think of memories... some good some bad. It makes me forget why I made the personal decisions i've made in my life. Im tired of telling myself "I just dont know what I'm doing." Thats no excuse. I know why I made them, just always re-evaluate them. I shouldn't be drinking at all, given my past and ( Read more... )

My MOS class started this week. Insane. I never would have imagined it being so difficult. I have to know everything there is to know about maintaining and setting up networks. We also spent the entire day assembling and disassembling computers... over and over. I actually have to bust my ass studying to keep up. I never thought Id say that. ( Read more... )

Well, im off all week due to marine corps birthday (10 November 1775). I am bored out of my damn mind. Not much to do on a base where the male to femal ratio is 6 to 1 other than xbox and sleep. Thought about getting my other tattoo today, but dont really have an extra 3-400 laying around. My parents woulds shit a brick ( Read more... )

I can't help but think about how things were this time last year. I would do anything to have that quality of life back. If I had that combined with the person I am now, I could never ask for more. Im doing okay but still down. I want something I cant have. That's usually how it goes...

My mind is still in chaos. The fucked up thing is that I no longer mind being here in the desert. It's different. I just wish I could tap into my life at home a bit more. I miss being there for everything. I hate missing out on the lives of my friends and family. I constantly find myself wondering how different things could have ended up if i ( Read more... )

I didnt expect to ever write in this again, but here I am. Too much has happened. Once again, my world is upside down. Everything was all planned out and seemed too perfect. It was. That's what got me ( Read more... )

Im experiencing something new as of a few days ago. I am kind of scared when it comes to my decision with the MARINES. No, I am not regretting doing it. It is exactly what I want to do and the best decision I have ever made. I am starting to contemplate whether I made the right decision with my MOS, which is with computers/communications. ( Read more... )

Someone needs to stop being a fucking loser. You know who you are.

Voodoofest is coming. Friday. I can not wait. Jorr is coming with me and everything will be great.

Today was my first USMC delayed entry program function. We did a full strength test. I am fucking wiped. It sucked sprinting top speed down the side walk with a sargeant major behind me yelling "faster!!! I better not fucking catch up with you!!!!." My lungs were about to give out. Thats all part of it. Things will improve as I get into ( Read more... )

So, I just got back from Military processing in NOLA. I can honestly say that was one of the funnest nights of my life. After bumming a cigarette from an Army recruit, we began talking. I was bored as shit at the sheraton before this, so it was cool. He was like "Hey dude, you seem cool. Wanna come party it up with some Army people?" Fuck yes ( Read more... )