Ever feel like you are the world's biggest screw up? Well Ya I do. I am leaving sunday for a few days. I won't really talk to anyone though. I'm outta here!

Well yesterday was my brothers graduation. I almost cried. I wore a dress for it too. OMG! Bonny and I hung out together before the big party thing. It was fun. Then we were at Andrew's house for 4 of there open house thingy. It was a blast. We watched their camping trip. I met chip. He was playing guitar alot. He was really good! After the parents ( Read more... )

Well Bonny had her babyshower Saturday. It was so much fun. I was told I look like my great aunt Myra! I was thrilled cause she is gorgeous! I cried when Bonny got all her baby furniture cause she started crying. I became really sad when she had to leave cause I realized how much I miss her and don't see her anymore. I miss that girl so much! Then ( Read more... )

Well after hearing about what aunt lisa asked mom. I have been worried about where I would live if it happened. Carissa could live with grandma and them. I thought I would never live with my father. So Harry offered me to live with him but he would feel bad cause he'd only be there 6 months out of the year. So we both decided I could live with ( Read more... )

The sound of your feet pounding against the gravel as you fly by the scenery and the sound of the pitter patter of the rain hitting the ground as you run through it couldn't be any better. I just had one of the best runs in a long time. The light rain was so refreshing. I couldn't of been anymore relaxed. I loved it. I needed that run that was the ( Read more... )

Mother's day was a great day. I was late to the family thing and all I had to do was walk down the driveway. Lol isn't that sad. I was talking to Marcus though who I hadn't talked to in awhile. Then I had to help my friend Craig. So I was late from talking to my friends. Lora almost fell into the fire. Mom almost caught her butt on fire. Terran was ( Read more... )

Well I had a pretty good week. I got to see bonny! She waddles now it's so funny I love her being pregnant. I have been babysitting twice this week. I am exhausted from it. I babysat yesterday. Then went dancing with Chelsea later. It was fun. Thursday I had dinner at Addam's house. It was fun. Last night I got asked to slow dance by 3 guys. One of ( Read more... )

Well day started out great. Then I got home mom was missing. Eric told me he was done. I understand but ti's gonna suck with him gone if he leaves. Rachel is pissed at me and I don't know what I did. She told me that I could go there but I would rather be here to call people and figure things out. She got off in a huff and I don't know what I did ( Read more... )

Last night I was called fat by not only my mother but my grandmother. I was so hurt I had to leave and ended up crying for about an hour. I don't think anyone realizes how low of a self esteem i have and how bad it hurts to be called fat. I know trust me. No one gets that but no matter what you say it still hurt me. I have a year left till I can ( Read more... )

I'm sorry guys for the past updates just venting about stuff. I know it's annoying so I'm not going to let you guys see those updates anymore. I will just make it so I have it here cause I'll still need to vent and if I can't figure that out I will start writing that stuff in a journal. I apologize once again cause I know it's driving ya'll crazy.