I know what love is. I think of it as a spark that drives someone. It makes them push through a hard day at work, increases patience, in a happier mood all day despite hardships. I don't feel it. I feel nothing. I want to feel it again. It will give me purpose in this life. It will make me happier. I can do what I want without fear of falling into ( Read more... )

Even with school im not happy. I may seem happy but I am not. Maybe ill be single for the rest of my life. My mind is toxic if I don't find happiness like I once was I have come to terms with it. I wish I could take the anti depressants that a friend is offering but I think it takes days for my body to find the balance. Im not really worried about ( Read more... )

Oh how the so called mighty have fallen. resorting to selling your digital character up for prostitution. Is he not man enough to support you. is he not man enough to keep you from doing that. pawn his systems, tv, any luxuries. AC wont help it will just create a false sense of luxury then you will hit rock bottom faster than you can think.

I remember that valentines day where i out did myself. I found out that Ne-Yo was coming to town on valentines day and i was like.... I HAVE TO GET TICKETS, SHE WILL BE LIKE LOVE ME LONG TIME. Well i had to borrow 100 bucks from my brother to get the tickets and guess what i got tickets on the floor really damn close. So that day she comes home ( Read more... )

When I wake up ill get to what I was supposed to last night. Well anyways short peek at me. What is the phrase " I love you" is it just another phrase or is it something you tell someone with a deep deep connection. Or anyone you consider a friend. I thought I only said it to the one I love but really I was broken and shown its just a phrase. I was ( Read more... )

I think i understand what went on. As i watched one guy's ac plans go down the drain because of his parents i saw the many opinions of the people. Id say 75% called the dad an ass and the rest took a neutral stance and faulted both. With most furries being gay or bi they feel like outcasts so they outcast themselves into the furry world. Even so ( Read more... )

Adding to the pillows I have there is one that I have that smells like you. It makes me happy my mind imagines you are with me. It makes me think I am here 2 years ago. Its odd I know but it relaxes me, it relaxes the pain I have to let me sleep.

I use one of my pillows as a body pillow and hold it as if I were holding her. It makes me a bit happier and relaxes me enough to sleep. Kinda sad but I need to do anything to sleep.

I have a gut feeling that this year's ac will finish breaking me. Kinda odd that where it first started it will finish me. Its not the actual con that I fear but the aftermath. The 2 weeks after that I fear. I remember the weeks after the con I worked my Ass off. I was dead tired. I did not ask for a wife to make me dinner, undress me, wash the ( Read more... )

I want to come home to someone. I want to tell them my frustrations from work or if something happened at work. I want to share what i find on the internet. I want to take them out to dinner even if its like at 1am. Wrap my arms around her, my face in her shoulder realizing im a lucky guy. She comes up to me after work give me a hug one of those ( Read more... )