Ive come to terms with what my future could hold. If all i have is my career and friends i can live with that. If i have no wife or children ill be ok. I guess my mind has become too toxic that id hate for anyone to get too close. But the future is full of possibilities so who knows but i atleast have come to terms with a worst case scenerio for me ( Read more... )

I have given it some thought and ive come to the conclusion that dreams are well dreams and goals are obtainable. Dreams don't come true in this world, they are a mere fantasy to keep us happy or to keep us looking on the bright side of things. Dreams are not something that can come true. It maybe possible to mistake a dream with a goal. A goal is ( Read more... )

you now think like them, you cant see reality. You cant see what really matters in this world or how to abuse it to get what you want. Fame and Fortune is what will get you a Camaro SS and a house that would dwarf anyone's house. A tail does not mean that they are furries, ears does not mean its furry, fuzzy stuff does not mean they are furries. ( Read more... )

threw away many of her things today. Including the first gift i have to her which she named yoru. its night(nite) in japanese. I hugged it and then reluctantly put it in the trash. i kept a few things but those will end up in the trash eventually but id like to keep them for now. Its a reminder that i once had a wife, not a heartless monster that ( Read more... )

why wont people let me leave furry. I want no part in it. I dont do anything i dont draw, sketch, make music, write stories, or poetry, or make stuff. What can i do, repair and construction, and lab work, NO place in the furry fandom. Stepping back and looking at it really there is nothing for me. Sure i can make friends but i can make friends at ( Read more... )

I hate my life, I hate the furry fandom, I just keep falling into depressions after depressions visiting FA. I want my old life back, I want to be happy, I want to have a reason to get up and work another day, I want to have that special someone with me while i sleep. You may see im happy by the way i carry myself, talk, and smile at others, in ( Read more... )

so in about a year and half so that will be december of 2012 ill re-evaluate my situation again as afar as finances, achievements, love life, and popularity. If things havent gone well for me as far as getting more friends in the fandom then ill just drop it all. I just dont think with an artists mind. I think a more logical route and cast the ( Read more... )

I want you back ill give up this school I got in and go back to home depot to et you back. I was happy I was in love. Madly in lovei hate my life still. School is only a distraction my mind will be too occupied to.be sad.but when bed time come around well the depression will get in.

I was promised "I will always be there for you no matter what" I was lied to. Today is our date anniversary while tomorrow is our wedding anniversary. We said we would last for years but it lasted as long as the people we said we would outlast.

Short and to the point: I hate life please accept me school so I have a purpose.