poo. i havent written in awhile....probably because my fucking journal looks like shit. grrrrr. whatever. choose water over wine bixnatch. sooo i havent really talked to zack recently..he keeps inviting me over to get drunk but something always gets in the way. its pissin me off...me and josh have started talking more...its god i suppose. me and ( Read more... )

ive quit drugs guys. yay! and cigarettes too. im about to go smoke a joint though. happy morning!! this weekend, me and erin got a half oz. and it was weird because we figured we would get ripped off because it was from people i didnt really know. it happened to be "soaked" in something says my dad, but apparently it was soaked in something VERY ( Read more... )

GOD DAMN yesterday sucked ass. i woke up late. and then i failed some quiz...then i decided to write hanna the longest letter ive ever written her. i told her everything ive felt about her since day one. about how im in love with her...but not as a girlfriend. and i made sure to make that clear because i didnt want that to get weird. all i want ( Read more... )

Im so mad at hanna. god. im just so sick of her lies and her taking advantage of me. its shitty. so someone called me last night right before i feel asleep. if he hadnt called me at that minute i wouldnt have gotten up. Justin...who i havent talked to since april or may. we are technically still going out so that would make our relationship about 7 ( Read more... )

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST!!! this pisses me off sooo bad man. fucking someone got in my fucking journal and totally fucked up my layout and the worst part is i dont know how the fuck to fix it. jesus christ. i mean come on...what kind of stupid fucking asshole has the nerve and lack of a life to go into someone else's shit and fuck it up? thats just so ( Read more... )

he only wanted me because he was drunk. what a shitty weekend. there isnt an "us" anymore...i suppose its for the best. but if its for the best...and if i didnt evem really like him anyways..then why the fuck am i so upset? why are you always right mark? god i hate how you're fucking right about everything. i knew it was coming though. i never ( Read more... )

i fucking hate winter so much. i have never been as depressed as when winter comes. it always gets me in such a melancholy mood. i cant fucking stop crying and i dont know why. maybe its becuase im sick? maybe its because every little thing is making me crazy. maybe its because every time me and zack makes plans he finds some fucking way to cancell ( Read more... )

GOD DAMNIT!! im sick and it sucks. im so fucking tired of shit man. dude im second best with chase and he only wants me so that he can have sex with me...which wont happen but he thinks thats what hes getting. he wants erin and im his last fucking resort. why does this shit happen EVERY time? like seriously im cursed or something. its getting sooo ( Read more... )

So. fuck. i havent written in a long fuckin time. So thursday...was a good day. hanna go the pills and shit. wooo! i went with joey and joseph and we smoked a blunt.:)then i think i smoked more with josh and mark but i dont remember to well. then shannon picked me up with jj and hanna and someone else i cant remember. damnit. anywho. we couldnt ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANNA!!!! YOU ARE FINALLY 16!!!So yesterday was an ok day. it wasnt too bad. i fucking hate corey though. i still fuckin like him and hes such a dick. whatever i dont care. i dont think josh wants to hang out with me anymore either. i can understand him not wanting to smoke me out all the time but sometimes i dont wanna smoke... ( Read more... )