Damn im getting old fast... I started writing on this site 12 years ago. Anyway, im filled with a sort of exhuberance today. After work yesterday i came home to mow so i could get my outdoor patio set put together. My girlfriend bought it for me for my birthday and i cannot wait to set it up. I got a little behind because it started to rain while i ( Read more... )

Well, where to start.... I love my life. I have for a very long time now. I have accomplished a few things over the years. I have a nice car, a decent job, i got an apartment i lived in for a couple years, then i bought a house, im still with my beautiful girlfriend that i couldnt love anymore if i tried. Everything is great, i have two nieces and ( Read more... )

I stopped writing and started building a life, it would be so interesting to see what it took to get me to this point. Everything is so different now. Elaboration will follow, but it must be for another night. Work comes early and im already up way too late...

It took me a long time to get to this point... Everything in my life is so different now. In the begginging it was my girlfriend that initially got me to start making life altering decisions... ultimately leading up to where im at now. Ive come to so many revolutionary conclusions about how i live my life... Its been well over a year now that i ( Read more... )

well haven't done drugs in abt a year, i quit drinking a week ago, just for a month or so.... we will see maybe longer. i picked the hardest time to quit purposely, when everything seems to be crumbling. i need to prove to myself i can control my actions. i don't have to be an addict or a loser. my heart hurts, bc its broken. only because i ( Read more... )

things have just taken a 360.... completely quit doing drugs, quit doing dumb things.... i feel like its just gonna be better from now on. I'm a completely different person than i was 6 months ago. hopefully a house soon, and a career i fit at eventually. its crazy how things play out

I've been doing the same thing every single day for the last year.... i need to get out of this rut and accomplish something further. I'm old now.... ugh, sooooooo far behind

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Im so Fuckin sick of my life, im sick of being broke and nowhere.... and i plan to Fuckin do something abt it. Idc what i have to do, im Goin somewhere, i need to pull some confidence and motivation out and ill get there. Im Goin to bed now so i can wake up tommorow and get it done. Get these Fuckin bill collectors off my ass.... get a second job ( Read more... )

So, i am so Fuckin frustrated with myself right now.... im just never good enough, i kno i set my expectations for myself really high, but i don't give a fuck. I should be able to accomplish my goals and then exceed that. Im not smart enough, skinny enough, strong enough, confident enough, pretty enough, just never good enough in general. I can't ( Read more... )