It's so weird reading back my entries. How I fucking HATE the last guy I supposedly "loved". How I used to be so sad and happy at the same time. How I'm already done with a year of college with a 2.98 GPA. I can honestly say, I absolutely love my life right now. I absolutely love it. I haven't had a panic attack in forever. The only moments I'm sad ( Read more... )

I hate this time of the year. These cold months ( Read more... )

I'm moving in 3 WEEKS ( Read more... )

Seems like a miracle to me considering the rate and amount I was drinking ( Read more... )

Hello beautiful life ( Read more... )

Eh, I'm done again. Shut it all out ( Read more... )

Tonight, I was lying down next to Shay on my bed. I was talking about December, talking about life. He looked into my eyes, kissed me, held my face, and told me he wished there was something he could say to make me feel better. I almost cried right there in front of him. In front of a guy I barely know. I'm crying right now actually. I've never ( Read more... )

I really hate December. Do you remember how you were feeling a year ago today? I do. I've learned not to cry in front of people. It worries them too much. I've laughed and smiled so much lately. Cameron told me the other day when we went on our date to the porn shop that I've been smiling and laughing a lot more. That really made me happy to hear ( Read more... )

Friday night was ridiculously fun. I'm not sure why. Maybe because I was ridiculously drunk off of my ass. Maybe because I finally got to hang out with my favorite people. There was Jenn, Michelle, Josh.. Rocky and I hung out for real for the first time. We took shots of Krystov. Aside from the fact that Krystov is gross, milk is the best chaser in ( Read more... )

AHH fuck fuck fuck ( Read more... )