it's amazing, how the strangest of circumstances, the stupidest turn of events, can lead to such an intense and amazing discovery. I've realized what I want, NO, what I NEED to do with my life...music. period. that's my ticket to the world. that's my way into the life I want to live. But don't take this the wrong way dear noone, I could care less ( Read more... )

friday night, I went to a kickback....was the most fun I've had ever at one of those....allow me to share the details with absolutely noone ( Read more... )

it's been quite a while since I've posted on here, primarily because I write blogs and whatnot on myspace, and I've got a good 2 dozen people who read those on a regular basis, as opposed to....the one person who may or may not be reading these :( but I often write on here for the privacy...for the fact that I can write down my thoughts and not ( Read more... )

there are times...when I need to write, to take the feelings and emotions from the space between my ears, and put them somewhere....I honestly can't explain why I feel the need to do this : / I mean, when I think about it, I realize that while typing this, all of the painful thoughts and feelings come rushing back so i can focus on them to place ( Read more... )

so I'm gonna keep this short and simple.....tonight, someone whom I'm very close to, did something so unthinkably inconsiderate, yet so feebly miniscule unless understood, that I am at a complete loss for words and am so offended that if said person were here right now, i would have to restrain myself from using violence....now mind you, I've only ( Read more... )

hmm....my first journal entry in exactly 115 days, according to this thing....but in all honesty, the last post I've put up was....hell I don't know, close to 3 years ago I'd assume : / it's 3:38 AM on a saturday morning, and I'm wide awake, with noone to talk to, and way too much on my mind as always...I don't feel bad, I don't feel good....I'm ( Read more... )

i feel like im back in high school again..... its like.... i just had the biggest fucking punch in the nuts tonight, and I've realized how naive and childish I've been..... and lemme tell you, it's pretty fucking naive and childish.... i realize, as of right now, that my current attitutde will get me nowhere.... I will always be left feeling like i ( Read more... )

my myspace wasnt workin tonight.... kept tellin me it couldnt find the server or some shit.... so i figured i'd use melissa's to check my page and see if i had any comments.... but for some strange reason, she changed her password, yet im the only other person besides her that knew it..... why is that?

i remember about a year and some months ago, there was no question about where i stood. there was no reason to ask because i already knew.... but now, ive been scared. the past few weeks have been.... not so happy. she doesnt want me anymore, she's has a crush on another guy, and the worst part was, she put me through hell a few days ago because ( Read more... )

im gonna write a song... i think ill start with the bass line.... more on this later...