that did it, that opened the flood gates and broke the niggas back...lol thats all i needed

how are things doing for me? well better i must say, ive been hanging out with alot of people and that helps take my mind off of the fact that certain people are avoiding me like the plague....fuckers....anyways the shit cant get much worse so im takin my time, and biding in it waiting for something good to happen to me for one...later

i have a deep and profound hatred for myself right now, i wish for so many things but nothings gettting any better today, i have no realizations and havent come to terms with anything, i want so badly to just take all this bullshit out on myself.....goddammit, im hurting but i dont want to show it, so ill just plaster this fake smile, and act like ( Read more... )

i hate this, my emotions swing about me like a pendulum waiting to carve me in two ( Read more... )

"shakes head"

time for sleep, rough night

cait i know you never read my shit, and you never post anything, but i wish you did, i never know if i do anything right anymore, and im just fucked up confused all the time now...love is hell, but godammit i love you

du du du du these are the last days of the beginning of our lives and i feel like a young one with a mind set on BUTTSEX!!!!!!!! lmao shits not too bad, just confusing like always, but i love my girlfriend and my friends, prom wasnt too bad it was okay, i got to be with caitlin and thats what matters

im tired of being repeatedly shit on now i know how mike felt

i dont know why i bother on this thing not like anyone reads it or thinks its of any importance anymore, anyways im done with being paranoid with shit, and having low self esteem, ive never had problems with people liking me or anything and im tired of acting otherwise, so fuck it im going to back to being me again, because i know what im worth, i ( Read more... )

you ever get that feeling, that people are just making excuses to avoid telling you something they should, or because they are doing something they shouldnt? Makes you paranoid and feels like shit doesnt it?...i dont know ive been acting like its no big deal, but im tired of this change, it doesnt really look all that right, and somethings gotta ( Read more... )