A small amount of time has gone by since Deshon said he loved me for the first time ( Read more... )

I watched an old home video last night. From when Jasmira and Alim were still dating the first time around and her and I were closer.
I realized I was really very pretty once. I don't think I knew.

Maybe it was just a phase. I don't want to be bitter anymore, once again. I'm ok with being cute. I'm ok with being "dumb" as well.
Life...is generally good.

> > > > Aw! You guys should get married ( Read more... )

> >Would your name be on that list?
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> >-Griffin
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> Ha...you're treading on some pretty scary waters
> there.
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> Jamie Beast
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>I know. But you didn't answer the question.
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>-Griffin

Ah, Griffin, thanks for noticing. What can I say? Of course my name is on that list. But I'm not exactly looking. And I can't say that on the list, right?

Just when I start to feel like things might be better, for no reason really, between Deshon and I, I start getting annoyed with him again.

I'm going to blame it on the new arrangement of the elimination of the NY SC and our living arrangements. I've never realized before how much it's my fault and not Deshon's sometimes.

'Figures it would be Deshon who cracked me and got me to use a smiley face on the internet.

Alright, so my birthday night was good. Deshon got me a beautiful dress, a white one, just the color I was imagining, and I felt beautiful, too.

We were cute, and it felt natural. I felt better than I have for a while. Deshon really is adorable sometimes.

Look, I've got myself a picture. She's all pink.

As I was laying in bed last night, I thought how nice it would be if Deshon was out sometime. And while he was out, I would take a long, hot shower, getting everything clean and soft and using the best fragrence to glide all over my skin, so that every inch of me smelt sweet ( Read more... )