oops i did it again.

[nonexistantcat]

i'm sorry. i didn't mean it... mostly.

i'd like to say its all the issues we never overcame last time, they're undermining what we have now... but it's not true. i mean, yeah, they keep coming back and haunting us. but because they still apply.

i told you that i changed. i told you back in, what was it? march?  when we made up. i said that i didn't

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[mandakumquat]

sometimes, when you realize for the millionth time how much you've been kept from and how new the world is (even if some things, like money issues or sex or drugs or violence) to you, things like college seem... scary. like they should still be as far away as when you said you wanted to be a fairy princess when you grew up.

as much as i can't wait, i'm afraid of senior year. terrified. as much as i want out and want the new, i can't seem to fathom the independence. i'm not an independent person. lmao.

i'll be online

[nonexistantcat]

i think you missed my point. i'm not afraid to go to college, and i never wanted to be a fairy princess. actually, i wanted to write books. haha. almost as ridiculous, but hey, i was in 2nd grade. teachers encourage that sort of thought.

i don't know what you have to be afraid of either. freedom? that's not scary. that's relieving.

either way, we've got much to discuss, i'm sure. you've been gone for a while.