it's cold. i'm more concerned than disturbed. cold means mental unrest. i don't mind being cold, but i mind losing it. i think it could be alright, if i just get a job. but... where? nowhere i've applied has contacted me.... grr. still have options. i'll keep trying. maybe thursday or tomorrow.

microbiology is nearly finished. hmmm.

my stupid brother ( Read more... )

I spent today with a variety of people, but most importantly i spent part of it with thomas and part with rebecca.

rebecca and i saw a movie. it was really good, despite our front row seats. Great movie. and we harassed jess at wendy's afterwards.

and before that i got to spend time with thomas. ^-^ as great as the rebecca time was, it wasn't nearly ( Read more... )

thanksgiving. happy turkey day.

woke up late. was supposed to be at gmama's at 8 but i work up at 9. went anyhow. helped with last minute prep. slept in because i babysat emma last night till nearly one in the morning last night. cool. anyhow, i did my time at gmama's went home, showered, got dressed, rebecca made me smile, i went back to gmama's. ( Read more... )

On Friday I went to see Thomas in his play at the clam. Nicool, Jess, Kienya, and Desi & Zack came with me. Rebecca met us there. ^-^. The audi was interesting. Not acoustically sound, but pretty. Rebecca says its ancient. lol. I caught a glimpse of thomas peeking out of the curtain. i think he sent me a telepathic message to look up, because he ( Read more... )

MAIZE. That's the color.

I FINALLY submitted my UofM app today. now dad's worried that i'm only applying to one school. he said "apply to wayne" my mom started yelling at him from the other room. I'm not allowed to apply to wayne.  which is fine. i'm NOT applying to ferris. I think i'll apply to evansville. I liked everything i heard about that ( Read more... )

I had a great morning. From the time that I got to talk to len until lunch was fantastic. I FINALLY got my storytelling down to time. that really excites me. everything was going well.

then lunch came. and it bothers me enough come home after drama and have to vent.

we got into a discussion about about how amanda had a romance novel stuck up her ass ( Read more... )

So yesterday I was all upset and stuff. I really wanted to go to the Fall Rally. I wanted ideas for recruiting, i wanted to meet jane, i wanted to feel like a real member of the club. and i wanted to be with thomas. I wanted to drive with him and make sure he was awake and alright. i wanted to watch him being himself. i wanted to talk to him about ( Read more... )

Yesterday was the last game. I was really upset at first. Everytime I looked at one of the flutes that wasn't a senior, i started crying. I like them so much. I just feel like our time together was so short. I'm not afraid to graduate, i won't miss high school one bit. But i WILL miss the band... a lot. and this is the end for me. there's no ( Read more... )

I've been thinking lately. Quite a bit. about this one thing.

it's a big one.

and i can't talk about it, not really, because its just not... conversible. not like in a bad way. its not that i'm keeping things inside. i just don't want to have a discussion about this thing. i do want to get some input, however. so maybe i'll email desi. can't talk ( Read more... )

There's so much going on right now, but since band is over everything  else has gotten easier. I get to go home. I'm not trying to split myself so much. and my mind keeps going back and forth about getting a job. i'm sure it's best to wait until after the play, but i need money! how will i have enough for christmas gifts if i don't get a job until ( Read more... )