The color of feeling blue. talked to long about the future. about all the things i stopped believing in sometime around when i stopped thinking the little mermaid was a good story. can you blame me? i watched beauty and the beast a few days ago with rebecca... even that has lost it's flair. i mean, i still love the colors and the music... but i don ( Read more... )

today i choose the color of unhappy.

why can't i just be happy? or pretend to be happy? i mean, everybody knows that all i've wanted all year is to be with him again. so why doesn't it make me happy?

maybe because he doesn't want to be with me. maybe because the first time we see each other after a week of his absence he wants to stop by to see this ( Read more... )

I don't know if I want to fight these battles all over again. they hurt enough last time. even after nearly a year of misery, it's hard for me to look at all the mountains ahead and say its worth the climb. i've been hurt over and over again. not that it matters, because it doesn't. i deserve it. but talking tonight... it helped a little, because ( Read more... )

It used to be that when you went on these sorta trips you would go outta your way to call me at least a couple times. I loved the sound of your voice when you were excited during storytelling. we've been on the phone once this summer, and it was before school was out. and txt messages cost money. and there weren't any chances to get online, i'm ( Read more... )

this is my closest attempt at "the color of tired". after all, it has to show up on black background. i'm filling y'all in on the past couple days because i'm not ready to write desi back and i won't be able to sleep if i try. i was up early this morning. around 6.. the thunderstorm woke me and i didn't want to return to sleep. so i didn't. Anyhow ( Read more... )

the code for this color is 33cccc. isn't that nifty? yeah, i thought so too. ^-^

everybody seems really bored right now. or busy. and rebecca's gone so i can't call her up. i think i'm going for a bike ride down the road. i've never been all the way to the end. and gotta keep in shape. or get in shape, one of the two. lol.

i'm looking for a second ( Read more... )

yeah, so i'm not working tonight. i got the call during my nap. hilary is the one that called. *shrugs* whatever.

i've had offers to go places, and do things, but i only have so much energy right now. there's only one place i really want to go, and it would be pointless right now. i wish i could spend all my time there. i wonder if cookie would like ( Read more... )

don't get me wrong, I love my job, but sometimes its so inconvenient. like today. i go in and bear tells me i got pushed back to 7. and to call at 630, because i may not be working at all. which is cool... except for i had to race home from somewhere else to get to work on time in the first place.

you know who's the cutest in the world? zeke. I love ( Read more... )

I feel myself being timed. like the fates are sitting up there with an hourglass. i can hear them now "you're wasting your time, sweetie, and you ain't got much of it to begin with!" "'ey! give me the eye, lemme see! oh geez, you gotta be kidding me! come on! what a waste of a good thing." "gimme the eye! what is she doing?!" "nothing. she's doing ( Read more... )

Today was a good day. I liked today very much. I have only one regret. I was too late getting to the library.

you see, it went like this. Tom was supposed to come over. then we would walk to the library. then we would hang out. but at 2 i had to clean so he could come over and he got here around 3ish so instead of making him walk right away i ( Read more... )