If you look in my profile you will discover that there is a link to my lj. But not this one. Dont worry i have not forsaken this lj. But i have to admit there is some pretty sticky situations i have got myself into in the past two years. Therefore making a new one was the only way to clear my record, start anew. And besides i cant tell the whole ( Read more... )

Im walking on the wire, tip toeing through the fire. Wondering if i stumble if they'll catch me or just let me fall. I wont look around, i dont want to see the ground.

I just wanna float on clouds and never come down...

Its only getting better. I seem to think things are changing direction in this. Like they are going to be going this different way and im going to be thinking "hey this is not what i want it to be" but then i will realize that at an unexpected moment it had to happen how it did or else it would never have happened. I dont make sense but its okay. I ( Read more... )

Days have become filled with sappy love songs,
sappy movies like dirty dancing and spanglish,
and sappy daydreaming.
Maybe sappy is the wrong word. More like romantic. Yea thats it!
I have become the very thing i used to hate.
The girl who would fall for corny lines in songs and go "awww" when they watched a chick flick.
I dont know what has come ( Read more... )

Im getting tired of pushing away the things i want most. Its draining me everyday. But i put myself in the position again and by the skin of my teeth come out unblemished ( Read more... )

I have never been a regretful person
still to this day

but forgive me for playing the part i did in your life
now i see so clearly that it wasnt right
i damaged myself and many others by doing so
not specific people just in general

forgive me...im in that akward stage
between what i was and what i will be

And just waiting for your judgemental

I'll write even when i dont want to. Havent felt like there is anything that anyone needs to know right now. Or anything that severly worries me that i have to vent about, like i usually do. I have felt more stability and peace in my life than ever before. Which, in my case, produces smaller more general entries. So i'll take a dive into my life ( Read more... )

I should know better, i dont know why i even try?
But im much better than i was regarding you
i just dont care but then do all at the same time
i think u can see right through me, you can see the real me
I think u see through

It was a dance like no one was watching
A shout like no one could hear you
A release like nothing could hold you back
And affirmation of what i've known all along

I have a terrible case of insomnia
Doesnt matter what time i get home
Im up till at least 5:00
Some say its stress, worry, anxiety
So i embrace it and write
I write about everything and anything
I make plans, i make ambitions, i make goals
"its 2 am. and im awake again writing a song,
if i get it all down on paper its no longer inside of me
Threatening the ( Read more... )