i am thankful for this time
altho its hard to cope
going through
what is necessay in order to...
but my strength is growing immensely
its unnatural at times, hard to handle
its sparatic and unmanagable
much like i tend to be 
i forgot what it feels like
to become strong through your weaknesses
to find joy in the midst of the sorrow
in the midst of the ( Read more... )

Letting little annoyances build up does no one good.
My quick tongue is sure to not let that happen.

I say what i feel, yet sometimes do so just for a response.
I like to see reaction, shock and awe.
Not saying something just to speak.
But saying something just to impact.
I dont want to be so open, i dont want to be so closed.
I will be neither.
I am open ( Read more... )

Good night ( Read more... )

Its fear that keeps me wide awake. When the expectations are too great and the bar gets raised too high. So i do the best with what i've got and hope that no one knows. That i strain to see how high i can try to stand on these toes until i measure but you know better. Thank you Jesus even when you see us just as we are. Fragile afraid and so far ( Read more... )

As soon as the words were out. I regret them. So i shut my jaw and broil.

Such a beautiful day ( Read more... )

Old life has to pass away to make room for the new...
I cant entertain this thought right now

One of my really best friends in iowa is having her baby. The one she wanted to abort. The one everyone else told her to abort. Those theology notes do come in handy (thanks P-mac) Im so excited im gonna be a Godmother...not too sure what that means but im one! Tomorrow she should be here...Jada Nicole

I like how my friends are as happy for me about something so small, as im happy for myself.

Sometimes i need to think to myself
Can any good come out of opening my mouth and saying this?
But i laugh off the akwardness and move on

This path is so much better than the one i had been starting to take days ago.
It excercises everything good in me to make ( Read more... )

When you have to get drunk just to stand being somewhere its not the scene for you ( Read more... )