Karmas a bitch and my father is learning first hand what its like. The war at home has gone farther then it ever has. Even I stepped off the sidelines. Every time I'm around both of them I feel like I'm at court and the attorney is asking me questions. Depending on my answers ones going away. I hate myself for wanting my parents to get divorced but ( Read more... )

I knew it was coming. I just didn't know when. Till now. It was easier then I thought. The feeling felt like a idea being smashed by memories slipped through. I saw that no matter what wisdom and help that I gave in the past had turned to nothing but shit. So fuck them all.

Oh yeah. I wanna play the game...

Its been awhile. I've spent the past months scraping goo off my soul... Even though I'm the most productive I've been in months, yet I still feel that I'm stuck ( Read more... )

This is my finnally entry. I'm quitting all drugs and booze. It's hard to classfy whats a drug and whats not, especially when I consider people drugs ( Read more... )

Life sucks and then you die, pfft. Its been a long fucking day and I have done things I regret. No more hard drugs for me. Its to much of loss of reality. I'm scrappping bottom here and all I can do is smile. I have to wing ambition back in to my life. I have decided a few things. I'm tired of being a virgin. I'm tired of being broke. I'm tired of ( Read more... )

People are always bugging me becuase of one thing. I'm a virgin. Everyone keeps throwing at me that its bout time I lost it, and now i'm starting to wonder. I've had oppritunities to lose it but always ducted out in search of something. I think that something is fading...

I can't make my life sound intresting when its far from it. Time is nothing to me. Each second seems to turn into a hour and before I know it i'm on the counch waiting for the night.

The curse has been broken. The day of my most horrible and nothing. I didn't even relize till a day later. I'm gettign hassled to get a job now. My lifes in the shitter and someones bout to flush.

Today was recovery day. Its pretty much the day after a party or something else. I slept most of the day and listened to my brother cry and bitch to his ex g/f. Its rare to see him cry. He always has a badass look that it almost makes you forget that he has that emotion. It also got me thinking about how its been years since i've shed a tear. I've ( Read more... )

The party happened. It was not as big as I was hoping. I tripped X but not enough. My others friends dropped to but only one of them got the full effect ( Read more... )