Since my eyes opened i've been working. I had to clean out a storage, rent a room, buy liquor, get high, fix bros ipod, get high again, and eat dinner with mum. I no some of my latest entrys have been high filled but theres a perfect reason for it. I'm bored with life. Also I grabbed a razor blade and it gashed my finger open, so now being dosen't ( Read more... )

I'm living off pot and tea. If i'm not high i'm busy if i'm not busy i'm high. its a vicious cycle that kills time like no other. I did my best to tag up loose ends and give a few suprises to my event. I have so much work to do...i'm just gonna get high.

I've spent to many hours in that junky limbo. Sleep and yet not. I always come back out of with a sence of ambition. I'm pooring all my funds into my p[rojects now and If I they fail i'm gonna have sharks chasing after me. My days are pot filled now. Its almost a full time job. I don't get high cause i'm addicted its becuase I have nothin else to ( Read more... )

My jealousy is at full effect. Its hard having a rival thats a one upper. Its burning in my head and I'm doubting my abilitys more then ever. I hate him. I wish they were dead. THere gonna try to ruin my night by upstaging me. fuck them to hell. I hope every possible thing goes wrong. I hope theres a death. I hope you fuck up more then ever. I know ( Read more... )

I think i've managed to get on a sleep schedule that allows me to see my family. I spent half the day tripping after I came home and saw my front door wide open. Nothin was missing except someone had turned on my dads porn. Spooky. I went nuts and checked every possible hiding spot in the house. I keep lookin around seeing if anythings missing but ( Read more... )

Christmas was fine better then i imagined. I thought I was gonna turn into the outcast like usual but no we all sat there played poker. It felt a little strange but it all worked out I guess.

Its strange, sometimes when I think of something enough it ends happening. For a awhile now I had a demon stuck on the brain and now shes messaging me. Its a trap. I've delt with ehr before and she left drained and weak. I lost all routine now and I just seem to pass out randomly now. Fuck I passed out at 10 last night. I don't do that.

My mother gave me some x-mas money today. I already diveded what I'm spending it on. 200-cloths. 100-booze/drugs. simple. For a long time I only lived on friday and saturday. The rest of the week was downtime. Now days...I hate fridays, there a reminder that I don't have a life anymore. I no i'm not the only one who feels this way. Also i've been ( Read more... )

Rats. I've been ratted out twice already. My brother ratted to my mom about my smoking habit and my dad ratted to her about my syealing habit. I'm a man whos very secretive. I really don't like ppl tellin on me. Not kool.

Some kids are born with a silver spoon, I was born with a rusty knife. Its been a eventful day. Visited mother and had fun there. One of the guys at the halfway house even thought I was a inmate and told me to line up.... Anyways for core of the entry. Revenge. Me and my remaining allies have had it with a certain friend of mine. There always ( Read more... )