My mom finnaly gets to come home well...sorta. you see the goverment is stupid and made this thing called the halfway house. Every person who was in prison has to go there and have a jb for a month for atleast a month. So we can visit her atleast. The meeting was good till my druggie unkle made a ass of himself and paid the penatly and walked home ( Read more... )

The whole worlds broken. Me being the humanitarian makes me wanna try and help. But...I can't. The world thinks of my kindaness as a weakness. Fuck them. The older people get the more they just stop listening. If they don't understand there scared to death of it, and will lash out if threatened by it. It being the unknown. Or it being everything. I ( Read more... )

I see the sun for only 30 mins a day now. My appearance well its rather lacking the best. I'm stuck in a lazy cycle. I can't do one thing without needing another thing that I don't have. To make this payoff i'm gonna need some outside assistance.

Ok so mabe thigns didn't go as planned. Turns out dear brother didn't want to work at the job so he quit. Well since he quit and he was my ride well I also had to quit. Sucks. Slept all day and woke up with half my household on ex and the other drunk. So what am I to do? I got high and drank champaine which sucks btw. Lifes in a barrel roll right

Its not a great idea to go to a interview high. I was losing it. Even when I was fillin in the aplication I filled ina few things wrong and mispelled a few things. It dosen't matter now. I got the job. I start tonight at 10pm. Aparently I'm cleaning up after a hockey game. I came home and crashed all day till about 12am. Spent a cuple hours ( Read more... )

A normal day of video gaming, nuthin to special. I chatted with a few ppl that kinda thing just killed time. I spent all night listening to the classical music station. I've always liked it but now that I know that sation number, its on klike donkey kong!

I'm stronger then this. I had to be strong. There are far more ppl then I that have worse problems. SO what if I lose all my friends, and things don't go as planned. I'm alive. By the time i'm finished...the world will know my name. Also. I'm quiting lj.

What I speak is truth. My first day I decided no pot and I feel nothin but depression. The bottle of liquor I have in my room is always on the back of my mind now. I can't figure out whats making me this way. I feel so weak. I almosted slipped already. So glad I didn't answer that fone call. It would have probaby been the coffin nail. I need to ( Read more... )

I'm pretty sure i'm addicted to pot. I smoke atleast twice a day now. Its a major change from my every other weekend. My coluge and I ahve agreed that this isn't so much bad thing since our time are rough and we just a need a little escape for now. I've also my dad seems to have a reatcion to me smoking. Looks like its letting him down. A reminder ( Read more... )

The stress of the day has driven my imagination to events that I have no chance of survival. I'm trying to write a story called the escapist. Its failing terribly. My brother gave me my x-mas perzent early. A purplish bong. The only friend I have contact with is pepito. The rest are just dead to me.