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well, I did it. I finally, for the first time in the 10 years since it happened, I cried. Oh, not much. I'm still so shaken....but I did it. I've spend the last 10 years in such denial that I haven't even really talked about it with the other person who was there. We've just cautiously referred to it as "that night" and quickly moved on. Yes, I've ( Read more... ) -
No. Words.
First, read this: http://andythanfiction.tumblr.com/post/87937759922/sex-lies-and-mental-illness
Then, this: http://delwynmarch.tumblr.com/post/88011071390/sex-lies-and-mental-illness
That's about all I can handle for tonight. -
Into the Abyss
Might start writing again. I have got to get my divorce finalized this year. Which means I have to stop hiding from all the pain and just get through it. It's a dark place I venture into. And I don't want to take the people I love. I don't want them to get hurt as I flail about in the dark. But I must get it out there. This journal is for those who ( Read more... ) -
Archetypes, Art, and Aphrodite
It's been months, but I reached a really good point tonight. Sometimes I let myself dream of owning my own home and save inspirational photographs. Tonight's search led me to Lord of the Rings. I still want a Rivendell - inspired bedroom, damn it! And you know what? It wasn't painful! I've been slowly letting Aphrodite back into my life ( Read more... ) -
Link
Ok, it's been months and months since I've posted. But you know what? It's kind of a good thing. It's a sign that I have a real life. One to live NOW, not just a past to dwell on. I'm not living as a victim, but as a survivor. Anyway, I was brought here today by an article on Huffington Post I wanted to share. Enjoy, and I will catch up with ( Read more... ) -
A quest
Through several months of therapy, I have come to the conclusion that I want to come to a place where I can truly forgive Amy. Not because she deserves it - gods know she doesn't, and probably doesn't even want it. But I want to be in a place where I rule my feelings, not the other way around. I've also come to the realization that while our ( Read more... ) -
Good link
I know, I know, it's been AGES since I've posted. I keep starting posts, but my current life keeps interfering with my old ones. heh. But I wanted to re-post this, posted elsewhere by a friend. "Why does she stay with that jerk?" -
Don't talk to strangers
This showed up on my homepage. Although my heart goes out to this woman (and others like her) it's nice to know I'm not being overly paranoid by locking up my online stuff so tight I have to send out the friend requests.
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Poking Badgers with Spoons
Getting out of an abusive situation is hard. Very hard. I've been told by multiple counselors that, on average, it takes 7 tries before a person succeeds. But getting out is not enough. It's also necessary to not end up in another one (average is 3 abusive relationships before we wise up). In the mean time, you also have to continue to survive the ( Read more... )
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