i fell in love with a friendship. not so much a person, a friendship and then it ends or i think it ends and so then i feel like i am broken forever. but the thing is i was always broken it just brings it out more.
ps never drinking again.
pps. nostalgia is pain.

i made a tape to listen to when i am sleeping of things that say ( Read more... )

i need well yesterday. i better do well today. today since i have my period i can have 900 calories. im trying to eat it all in the morning so im hungry throughout the day ( Read more... )

i want to be someone else or ill explode ( Read more... )

after work around 9ish exercise for an hour then shower. then get in bed and hope for the best.

lunch - carrots and water - 14 = 35 calories ( Read more... )

I am definetly going to kill myself if after I have listened to every single record and cd I have ( Read more... )

Hi. I just updated to say I fucked up. I ate a mini bagel with mozarella cheese, some pasta salad, and an ellios pizza. I dont even want to know the calorie amount. I got up the pasta salad a and bagel and some of the pizza. But god...I know I didnt get all of it up because Im stupid fat and worthless. Before I purged I looked at my face. Pale ( Read more... )

Ive decided to when I get a good idea or a well thought out sentence or something that will inspire me...to record it on a tape recorder. Also I am going to record conversations I wish to include in my short stories ( Read more... )

Okay well heres the deal...Im jumping out of my skin with the thought of starving myself. Im so excited to get back into it. And no matter how little I eat I will always want to eat less. Tomorrow is 700 calorie day. But I say fuck that high amount. But I cant because if I stray from the plan I'll be lost off my path ( Read more... )