Is it wrong for me to feel betrayed? Whatever happened..to "Good things come to those who wait.." I've been waiting..and nothing good has happened. I know I can't just expect to sit here and have all these things given to me..but why can't I just catch a break? I mean I have been waiting for this opportunity to come up again for like 2 years now. I ( Read more... )

Weird,

I feel so drained right now, like every breath of air has been sucked out of my body, like my soul is floating unknowingly, not wanting to return. My heart is racing so fast, and my head is spinning. There are so many things on my mind right now, but I have no energy to clarify them. I feel more lost than ever. Traveling through this endless ( Read more... )

I've gotten to the point where I think everything is the same and NOTHING CHANGES! It's like all my relationships start out great and end up in this huge, confusing mess. Half the time I’m not even sure where I went wrong, and what I’ve actually learned from my previous mistakes. Are all guys liars and cheats? I mean give me a break..I would rather ( Read more... )

My god, today had been so surreal almost dream like. I feel like I've slept my way from insane to just plain pathetic. I mean I get in these moods where I feel like I could ruin the world, our entire existence..just by revealing who I really am. I’m just this sad excuse for a person..who hides away in her room in fear of being happy. I know that ( Read more... )

Nothing exciting to talk about tonight..I'm surprised I really have no in depth look at the world or any twisted comments about how I feel I'm slowly being consumed by what we like to refer to as "Life".  Anyway..it was my grandma's 75th b-day party today..(Happy Birthday gram...xoxo) and all I could really think about was him. We haven't spoken in ( Read more... )

I feel like I've lost something. Almost like I've lost a part of myself. We take people for granted never really appreciating them..and what they have given or brought to our lives. And one day when we need them, they will be gone..and we won’t be able to do a thing about it. Whether we lost them to ourselves or lost them to the other people we ( Read more... )

I have done something’s that I'm not exactly proud of, and that I wish I could change but can't. It's useless to think about how things "could" or "would" have been, although this still does not make present day more livable. I relive things over and over in my head..and every time things turn out the same way. It's like I'm chasing someone or ( Read more... )

Here is something I have been thinking about a lot lately. If life is only what you make of it, and you are in control of your own happiness, then why is it that other’s actions affect you so greatly? If my happiness depended souly on me…then how come other people’s opinions matter? And why is it that when you care about someone everything they ( Read more... )

What if I have to do something wrong, to make everything right? What if my happiness depends on whether or not I get what I want by doing something unfair? I am putting someone I care about in a horrible position for my own personal gain. I’m going against what I believe in, but what if this is the only way? What if the only way I will be able to ( Read more... )

This is where I am now...nothing has significantly changed but I can't complain because things seem to be getting better. Maybe things were remaining the same because I didn't want them to change. I guess I'm just scared that things wont get better if I tried or, that I wont be happy. Maybe being happy is the thing that scares me the most. Every ( Read more... )