hello. im trying to figure out what i want to be when i grow up. i'm thinking about applying for the education program at PSU, to get my masters in addiction and mental health counseling. i may also decide to study high school education. the main thing is that i want to stay in portland, you see. also i have decided with some certainty that i do ( Read more... )

i just registered for the GRE general and subject: chemistry tests. the dates are October 27 and November 3. so while everyone else is partying for one straight week because it's halloween, i will be in the library studying. i enjoy scheduling exams during big parties. total cost: $270 ( Read more... )

hi livejournal. it's been so long. a lot has been happening. here's a list ( Read more... )

i am ridiculous. the whole thing blew over.

i just got back from a week long trip in northern california. bryan came too. we went to mutant fest and then to arcata to visit some peeps. it was refreshing. i shed some skin and am doing so currently, right here in the coffee shop. learned some stuff. for one, i need something to concentrate on besides work. for two, i need some real women to ( Read more... )

im sick of complaining all the time. have you noticed how much i complain? my life isn't actually that bad, compared to some peoples. im just a bit bored. so im going to start doing things that make me happy and try not to worry about anyone else until i am completely content or else ill continue on with this bullshit martyr attitude forever and ( Read more... )

yesterday was my birthday. i slept through most of it. i also got my first speeding ticket and now have to appear in court. i cried a lot. i almost adopted a puppy. then, me and bryan went to kanor's last day at the porn theater. it was okay. no one jerked off into my hair this time. we got free water ( Read more... )

sigh. alright, what is the problem. is a grapefruit more important than me, that's what i want to know. or a bowl of cereal. a mixed CD? where do i fit into breakfast. not to be hugged before, during, or after the brass monkey. over an hour late and still no sign of him. i want to call but it's going to be a big deal. they say boys can't deal with ( Read more... )

on the plus side, i got a lot of sleep this weekend. hours and hours. i could probably count the hours i was awake on two hands ( Read more... )

i left last night and everything was fine, i woke up and it was okay, then bryan went to sleep and i felt like shit. i can't relax anymore, even when im stoned. there's something missing and i don't know what it is, so i can't fix the problem. i'm sick of feeling like this.