i cant afford a piano.

i NEED a piano. i need lessons. theres  not even a question about it. 
i have to learn to play it in order to do what i want to do.

it kills me that i cant express my mind

maybe its concieted of me to think this, but almost  everyday i compose something in my head that i think is really beautiful. i dont like saying the word " ( Read more... )

i cant wait till san antonio and yet another new life ( Read more... )

so i went to the animal shelter today and we applied to adopt a kitten.shes grey. i will be naming her Peralta. 
there were bunnies there. i dont know why but i thought that was odd.
anyway, it was absolutely horrible being in there because there were so many kitties and they were all meowing for love and attention and it was just sad.
and needless to ( Read more... )

wooooooo HAIR DYED


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we're comfortable, and you make my bad days better again

as much as i would like to think and say that it didnt hurt,
this is the worst ive felt in a really long time.

on another note, (about someone else)

you didnt answer the phone.

i dont understand how talking to you can be so agonizing, but so exciting at the same time.
my chest is tight and i feel like crying, but isnt this supposed to be a happy thing, us talking?
i dont know how i can hate this so much, im so uncomfortable in a place that once was one of my only refuges, one of the only places i felt truly loved.

im ( Read more... )

i like "that 70s show"

it lets me pretend i dont have my life.

because most of the time i like their lives better than mine.
 mine is so full of ridiculous complications, that and they get to get stoned every day.

oh, adolesence.