I can't speak of this out loud because then it will all disappear again.

Is it wrong for me to have these feelings?

...enjoy it while it lasts because within the blink of an eye it will be gone.

Well at least I haven't completely opened myself up.

Why do I get all stupid emotional when I watch romantic comedies? I want a hopeless romantic event to happen to me!!!....wishful thinking, no fucking use to finish this post...These types of movies are only made to escape the harsh reality of what a real relationship is like, it gives people something to hope for when that something is non-existent ( Read more... )

Psh..update...hmmm what can I say sept hella, hella, hella, hella, hella, hella....uuhh what else, oh yah I smoked this kid stupid and had to bring him back to life..haha...wish I could tell you more about my weekend but honestly I would have a novel size post so here's the short version...sticky icky, onion rings, first friday, ex-girlfriend and ( Read more... )

Am I too nice??? Do nice guys really finish last and if so am I wasting my time patching shit up? I like to be friendly with everyone what can I say but I can't help but feel like no one would notice if I disappeared again...(except for a select few). Well none the less, the way I'm choosing to live my life is questionable yes but a lot of it makes ( Read more... )

I have been playing with fire! I'm probably going to get burned...but for some reason I'm finding a weird, twisted thrill in this whole not knowing thing. I'm sick! I'm toying with my own emotions but I don't have to worry I'm invincible to that pain now...right??? In addition to this post I would really appreciate an exact definition of the word " ( Read more... )

All I've got to say is I love everything about today....weather, good feelings, and positive outlooks on everything! Also I'm down for some cheesy horror flicks tonight!!!!

"Get down, turn around, go to town, boot scoot boogie!"...you know who you are.

I'm enjoying my life to the fullest extent accompanied by my new sweet-ass cowboy boots, yah thats right I finally bought a pair. I have decided to swear off any relationships until further notice, for now I'm just going to enjoy my own company and I'm perfectly happy with that. I have started a little savings account to get me back home by spring ( Read more... )

I had an awesome day today!!! Starts with sushi with Veena ( i fucking love sushi! and Veena is the rulest!) and ends with an AA meeting with the Chowsh. I have decided I love my life, every day of it! I am in the nearly perfect state of mind and I'll be damned if anyone is going to ruin it. Have I grown up already? I would'nt say that just yet but ( Read more... )

yah just what i needed, a fucking reminder compliments of The Acadamy Is...thanks a lot Cory...not that they're a bad band its just that they brought a world of hurt in my face for 45min..."one more song!!"..assholes. It's like someone is fucking with my head, everything is a god damn reminder. LET ME HEAL FUCKERS!!!... and on that note, I think ( Read more... )