so i wrote yesterday for the first time in a long time

slipping away
slipping in to you
looking foreword
only seeing back
scared little grrl
merging
scared little boi
wondering alone
surrounded by hundreds
they don't know
why i look back
when i'm looking foreword

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well i'm scared ... i don't know what to do i thought that once i got home and spent time the issues that that lady stired up in me about "how her realinship to her partners body changed" i love eryc i love the body that he has i know that i'll love the body that he will one day have maybe its that i never thought of myself as a partner and thats a ( Read more... )

well i'm back from TSC i was going to update last night but i got home and made some food and went to watch a movie (i got in at like 3pm) and i fell asleep and woke up at like 830am this morning so heres my post ( Read more... )

i'm off to true spirt ... so i'll be meeting some of you guys very soon ....

DADDY i'll miss you so very much when i'm gone ... i love you ... thanks for the valentines ...

i hope all you bois out here have a great valentines day and for those of us travelling i hope it goes well

well daddy and i have been hanging out with Chrystian a lot lately and that's been really fun ...its also been really good for eryc to hang out with other guys that in early stages of transition and that are feminist and just really cool like chrystian is

side note eryc and i played a hand in fixing Chrystian up with our cool queer grrl ashlee

so i'm going to TSC i'm a little scared about it i'm really shy thats all
avery john

just wanted to say thanks to RYAN, SHANE, AVERY JASPER, tupper26, swimunderground, JOHNNY THE #1 STUD for wishing me luck on school ... it well i took pre tests today

just thought i would let you know that i'm to my first day of school ...well its to get my GED. got to jet ..i'll update later about it.
avery the student

this will have to be a quick one even though i have not up dated in along time ... well my job is hell ... my sisters wedding will be hell cause my grandma will be staying at my house for like 5 days

avery

well i've been thinking about a post awhile ago in the_FTM_ the one about role models and how every boi wants to grow up and be just like his dad. its really hard for me to think about i know that my dad has not been as bad as a lot of fathers have been i do know that i do not in way shape or form want to turn out like my biological dad i cant really ( Read more... )