it's funny how optimistic i've been lately. i have all the faith in the world that i can do something really great with my life. and that is a feeling i hadn't felt until recently. it's a good feeling. things have fallen into place quite nicely. i almost feel like crying because at this very minute, im happy.

i had another one of my revelations or "as alcoholics call it, a moment of clarity"... and the idea of karma has got me curious, so curious i might add, that i couldn't even toss my gum wrapper out of the car window today because the voice in my head told me not to. even littering could lead to something bad happening to me, and i honestly need to ( Read more... )

things wouldn't be so bad if i wasn't trapped in this horrible head of mine ( Read more... )

something happened to me tonight, i mean, i think it's been happening but tonight it clicked. thats really all i can say about it now, i dont want to ruin or jinx anything.

i really want to be in the flow, go crazy, sleep a lot, not think at all, experience, smell, taste, touch, feel ah!!!!!!!!!!!! my mind and body is stuck in that mode. but i HAVE to be in concentrated mode: responsible, BORING MODE, school, think about my future mode ( Read more... )

I swear to God time moves so fast... faster than i can keep up, and I never have enough time in the day.

My 18th's birthday's in less than a month. i accepted to FSU today (i was waivering between FSU and USF, but when USF sent me a thing in the mail today saying I would be on PROBATION for my first year there, that pretty much made my decision for ( Read more... )

im sick of the way things are now. trust no one but yourself. ruin your lives, get pregnant, get arrested, and dont call me when you need me to help you. thats for all the dumb bitches ( Read more... )

i want my hair to be 10 inches longer, i want to sleep all day and go to porneoke all night. 4 1/2 months until graduation...

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before ( Read more... )

from tommorrow on, i plan to RELAX. i know im not missing a damn thing if i stay in my nice, warm bed until 2006 comes around. i wish everyone could realize how pointless everything is. JUST STAY IN YOUR BEDS AND BE SAFE AND EAT COOKIES WITH YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS. im anxious to start my job and turn my pocket change into dollar bills. im done ( Read more... )