There is a world of drama surrounding me and i have no way to make everything better...i try to figure out what it would take for me to change it all, but no matter how hard i try, it doesnt work...so im going to be there for everyone, but i cannot change what has happened or what is going on...im truely sorry for that...but im still always here ( Read more... )

There is a neverending release of pain excaping from the depths of my heart. It is overwhelming, filling me with just more pain. Love is not real. I imagine that i am just a silhouette. Im not really here, i dont really feel this way. Its the only way i can get to sleep. Tears have become normal to me. I suppose its because they wont stop. ( Read more... )

So, im having a little girl...im going to name her Brookelynn Jade...James has decided that he wants absolutely nothing to do with me or our child...how someone could turn their back on their own child, i cannot and will never understand...but it really hurts to be in love with someone who does not realize how much...i would do anything for him... ( Read more... )

It seems that no matter how hard i try, it seems impossible to believe james loves me...i know he is not faithful even though i have been this whole time...it seems that he doesnt want me to have his baby. like he doesnt care. i dont know if im overreacting or if he is in fact unfaithful

So as most of you now know im going to have a baby in march...james is moving to st. louis with my cousin, and im going to live with my mom...how i couldve let myself get into this situation ill never know but i do know that what ive learned from this is when your parents or some other adult gives you advice you should take their advice and use it ( Read more... )

drained...scared, and dying

Me and James are out of the motel, and now we're with my cousin Teresa, so hopefully we can save some money...his mom is coming down tonite and we're going to Illinois on Monday...but his ex is coming with Debbie(his mom) so im kinda wondering what all could go on there...im kinda sceptical about it...i might be pregnate, ive missed my birth ( Read more... )

Im back at motor inn..me and james are staying with some friends, we're splitting the rent so we all can save money...i got into a fight with my dad...i broke all my nails off from hitting him...he called me today to appoligize and let me know he thinks i broke his arm, but i really dont care anymore...im finally happy, and im taking responsablity ( Read more... )

So, me and James are moving in together on the 22nd...well, actually its me, him, his brother Raymond, and his exgirlfriend...which kinda pisses me off, but she's with Raymond now, and me and him are getting our own place when we get the money...so i suppose i can deal with it...im not pregnate which is a very good thing...im very happy though...we ( Read more... )

Love is a substance, envented to hurt everyone it comes upon. A pain so deep inside you can actually taste it. Men, showing their affection through this substance, just to end up leaving her behind. I feel as if a knife is ripping at my heart. Like, he never really loved me. Sharing all my feelings and secrets, that no one else knows with him ( Read more... )