We aren't moving to GA. I was misinformed. Whew.

he will be home in 1 month. I'm so freaking excited!!!

this diet I'm on is tough. I would be losing more wt if I could resist the small temptations that I rationalize but I did lose a few lbs and my moods are better. I do enjoy eating healthy. It's the end of the day when I'm tired,stressed and ( Read more... )

Dane and I will be moving to GA in 3 yrs for officer school etc. We will be there for 2yrs.

This is what he tells me. Of course he doesn't take into account the many many other things that can occur in 3 yrs.

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I started writing down the foods that bring on intense cravings. Alot of people have sugar addictions. Mine is linked to fat. When I was a baby I would eat butter like a candy bar, french fries and peanut butter satisfied me and cheese gives me a euphoria. Fatty foods increase dopamine release in my brain. Crazy.
So if I don't eat certain things the ( Read more... )

It's been 10 yrs since I had the gastric bypass ruen-y. The lumen has increased thus allowing me to eat larger portions. There is a procedure called the ROSE procedure. It's 13k. It would decrease the gastric emptying thus slowing the weight regain.
I'm thinking of having this done in a few yrs.

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I mailed dane his birthday gifts. I got him 3 tshirts from snorgtees,a Dimitri martin book,a case of hubig pies and a Remington electric shaver.
Anyway,there have been ALOT of military shows on tv this week. I chose to watch them even if painful. After seeing the things these guys go through I have the respect and gratitude that somehow I lost by ( Read more... )

I spoke with a friend today and she asked me if I was going to get pregnant as soon as Dane and I get married. I don't know.
There is always the possibility that I could be pregnant and Dane won't be here for it, that makes me very sad and torn. To wait or not to wait that is the issue. Sigh.
I wish someone could tell me what to do.I wish I had some ( Read more... )

Today was a lunch with my family. I was telling my aunt and uncle about Dane being deployed to Afghanistan.my grandmother started telling a story about her friends son who came back from Iraq and shot himself in his backyard. I was fucking livid and horribly sad about the reality of war and being a soldier's fiancé.I just looked at her and said"why ( Read more... )

Atlanta airport is huge and full of rushing angry anxious people. The next time I'm at the airport I will be picking up Dane.(september7th)!
My trip was ok. Got lost alot. The highways are winding and the hills are steep. I didn't mind it so much. What annoyed me most was that Dane could not help! Lol he walked everywhere on base ya know.
it was ( Read more... )

No one makes me feel more free,happy and full of life like Dane.

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everything can't be great alll the time.
lots of things are threatening my emotional security, self-esteem and ambitions.
10 months(302)days sober today.alcohol is the last thing I'm worried about. Now it's a matter of the spirit,character and sanity.

In one week I've had someone call me selfish,another said I'm arrogant, dishonest,another said I am ( Read more... )