i have not posted in quite some time so i guess its time to vent a little and say some shit. in the past month i know my life is becoming complete. i am not looking for the one who will die with me she is already here and i cant see her enough it seems like. my one joy at work is when i get a little something to remind me that she is still there ( Read more... )

the days keep getting better when i'm with her. i'm to the point when i cant stand not being with her all the time. its a small price to pay to be together. the past five days of my life have been some for the record books. i can only describe what i'm feeling to myself. i know it sounds funny but thats how it is. i know she can tell how i ( Read more... )

well today was a shitty one my family was fighting at my grandmas calling. my life it iat its lowest of low. whale shit aint go nothing on this motherfucker. my friends, the only two i call friends are helping me during this time in my life. so i am going to miss the funeral and piss off some people but i have a test to take for the best job a ( Read more... )

i work like a mofo. if you all call me ill try to answer if im not working. i work m-t 3pm-1am and ill work overtime ill be there fri-sat 1-9pm so you guys will just have to call and try to catch me. about chitown it will be awhile before i get up there because i have to pay off my cc and make rent. i have to get my couch so you niggers can ( Read more... )

at last i have a job and i got an apartment. i have to go pay for the rest of the leather shizz to have a place for the pimps and hustlas to sit and relax after smacking them hoes and gettin crunk. its in chester heights so call and stop byand see my dwelling in its infant stage. you all need to hit me up so we can catch up. rachface still ( Read more... )

im still alive.... hanging by a broken thread

the past months have been so depressing it just makes me feel like nothing matters. my grandma is in the hospital and her liver is shutting down and they are not sure she will live, but she could. i believe she will. i know i have blown off all my dearest friendslike a complete ass. i have not felt like leaving my house since a few family ( Read more... )

i know since i have been home i have been the asshole i always am but 10 times worse. i say im going to do something as little as a phone call and i cant even accomplish that. i have been so busy doing all this other shit i have ruined a few friendships and all the other shit i wish i could have prevented. i had so many plans to do everything i ( Read more... )

i was pissed as always this morning and just got in this mood. well im glad some poeple emailed me and put me in a better mood. i have less than 24hrs to go! i wish i had two tickets to paradise but thats not until later. i cant wait to just get in my car and go to the liquor store and get some booze stop by a few peoples houses who have better ( Read more... )

another day in the books. i got up early an went to work, the fucker said we had a lot of shit to do. well that lasted about 20 mins. then he said your off, so i was all shitty and said somethings i should not have said. fuck it people need to hear things like that sometimes, there is a chance they will wake up and quit wasting my time. its ( Read more... )