since about 130 this morning it has been snowing. there is about 8 inches in the ground right now. today, the day of our lord, the sabbath day is the day i get my two beers! im happy for that. i have about kicked my smoking habit. im happy for that. most of my friends will be gone soon. in a few hours they will be on there way home. i will ( Read more... )

sorry to all i have been an asshole to for the past couple of weeks. i have been in a mood that just wont go away and i just dont know what the hell is going on with me. i have said shitty things to my close friends that i regret. but i cant change it now. i feel like i have fallen into a black hole and come out with no memory or feelings. ( Read more... )

another day where nothing good happens. i think i now hate to call home and hear all the shit im missing. man i was sure smart when i asked to come back to hell. i bet you all agree life just isnt the same without me huh. who are you kidding. im just something to laugh at when i make a fool out of myself. i have a school for two weeks coming ( Read more... )

im completely finished with all this shit. back to the drawing boards. once again i have been shit on, i said i was done the last time. this time im for serious. fuck off to all and to all a good day.

i hate to hear that my friends are sad or people are being mean to them. if everyone would get along things would be so much better. a world where people could have the "i dont give a fucking rats ass about shit anymore attitude" because it would not matter, you would not be judged. blah your not like me, or thats stupid why did you do such a ( Read more... )

today has been pretty dull. i hope everyone had a good holiday. my usual intoxicating 4th of july was cut down to 2 beers, or pivos if you know serbo-croatian. everything is controlled here, like you see above the number of beers we are allowed to consume.. i havent been able to talk to anyone from home in a few days. everyone must be gone. i ( Read more... )

i just want to tell everyone who might read this shit that i am in hell. i was almost killed today and its like i dont even give a fuck. why should i noone does except my only to friends in the world. marsh and jones. i have been thinking about giving my leave dates to someone else. also thinking about staying here for good. i realize now ( Read more... )

it seems the things that are most important to me have just fallen to the bottom of the ocean. i now do what i have never done before. give up. im going to have to change the plans i have made for my future and take a kinda different route. which is great because i can disappear for 4+ years and noone will ever notice just like now. its good i ( Read more... )

some good news today. dont feel like sharing it. i really dont feel like sharing shit. happy fucking fathers day to all you dads out there. this would have been my 3rd. but who gives a fuck. noone seems to care anyway so why do i? just another question without an answer. im sick of asking. cant wait to get home. bike is almost done. cant ( Read more... )

well another day in paradise! a fucking kid kicks me in my million dollar dream and then laughs at me! i wanted to punt the little communist bastard. he was an asshole we gave the little no toothed connersville poster child candy. i think the sugar made him worse. other than that my day was pooptacular, we went on some nasty trails and had ( Read more... )