Depression ( Read more... )

You know what weddings make me want to do....elope! Basically, being a guest at a wedding makes me realize how miserable my friends and family will be at mine. The stress of planning and decision making also adds to my eagerness to run away. But maybe most of all, I just can't wait to be married and watching other people makes me wish my day ( Read more... )

somehow i always find a way to make life into a competition. who can be the smartest, the thinnest, the fastest, the most successful? I always want to be the best. and when i'm not, i blame and hate myself. it's strange to think how much the people you're surrounded by can influence your self perception. spending a week with a group of ( Read more... )

i can't explain it. i just feel exhausted and want to give up. i know i'm so close to the end, but it still seems to far. i'm so sick of being here and sick of people ( Read more... )

i can't explain it. i just feel exhausted and want to give up. i know i'm so close to the end, but it still seems to far. and then what? another major stress in life. maybe i'll feel better after today or after this week or after classes are over or after i finally graduate.

Yucky. i know it sounds like a childish word, but that's how i feel right now. i'm feeling stressed and thus depressed. everything seems out of control and unmanageable. i feel grossly fat for some reason too. and alone. i just want to curl up in my bed, cry, and fall asleep. but i can't. it's like, while i want to let all my feelings out, ( Read more... )

it's like sometimes i really just don't even get myself. i guess i could blame it on the medicine, my headache, or my annoying, bulging cheeks....but in reality i'm probably just the moody, bitchy girl that every guy can't stand.
i think it must be a sign when you're so annoying that you annoy yourself.

you wanted more than anything for him to hold you near ( Read more... )

ouch. an empty loneliness. an aching distance. wishing that the night would just end and the pain would somehow go away when he was gone. yet hurting even worse after he's gone. not knowing what to say or do. wanting everything to be ok. thinking it would just be best to run away. you're not worthy, get out of his life ( Read more... )

i can't explain exactly how or why or when, but somehow I have completely fallen in love with the most amazing guy ever. who would have guessed it would be someone I've known all my life, someone who was right in front of me the whole time. I can't completely express how happy i am when i'm with him. it's like everytime i'm around him, i just ( Read more... )