Being that this past year was an interesting one to say the least I've been meaning to kind of have some sort of processing on the things that have occurred ( Read more... )

Tonight I said goodbye to my mother, she's heading to inpatient treatment in Florida tomorrow. Im beyond distraught, I've been holding it together since the accident fairly well and Im just trying to give myself permission to be fucked up for a while. I want to write about it, and I will. But right now all I can do is hope that she transitions ( Read more... )

I am so happy right now ( Read more... )

During yoga we always dedicate our practice, this usually comes in the form of a daily intention. The goal is to think only of that for the entire practice, turning out "monkey brains" off. Today's was the concept of forgetting where you feel you should be in life by now whether that's monetarily or emotionally or even within pose to pose within ( Read more... )

Some pieces are finally interlocking. I start school in one week. Im signing a lease on Wednesday to small studio in Minneapolis that while tiny has some well loved features including a walk in closet and charming bath tub. Its nearby a park that I can see walking Mabel by and within walking distance is my favorite guilty pleasure chinese place. Im ( Read more... )

Mom is in this horrific situation and I cant seem to shake her enough to receive help. I've always hated she was there but never did I feel like it'd kill her, but at this point her life could be turned into a lifetime movie about alcoholism and domestic abuse resulting in tragedy. If things don't change soon I don't imagine I'll have a mother for ( Read more... )

I can't sleep, its nearly five in the morning, I'll be on the bus to yoga in a mere four hours and I cannot seem to lie still. I got Mabel back from her puppy sitter who was no longer able to take care of her tonight, I keep waking up and looking at her. My life is in such turmoil. All I want to do is get us safe and stable. I have three weeks to ( Read more... )

I'm back home ( Read more... )

Yesterday I went to the house I lived in when I first moved here. Mourned and mentally cursed at the yard that Echo got killed by dogs in. Met up with Toby and Mike. I thanked Mike for allowing me to live in his house, played with the dog some, gave hugs. More importantly I talked to Toby who had been a good friend initially but I'd allowed Alex's ( Read more... )

Earlier this morning after a round of Alex yelling at me about lack of laundry (even though I'd done it all he'd just thrown it on the floor instead of putting it away) I was determined to find every scrap of laundry and get it clean. In the closet there was a bunch of underwear and undershirts below the items hanging and I saw something that has ( Read more... )