well today was interesting, i think. The one thing on my mind right now it "anonymous one" and its obviously somebody i know but i cant think of who would write something like that. Its not james cause he thinks too far into things, its no sheri cause she just plain dont care, its not jeanenne cause she would have signed it, and i just dont know. ( Read more... )

well, today started out as a fairly good day. I got up and looked forward to going to work. Strange? i think so. I showed my manager my photo albums and he saw henry, he wants to see pictures of dan. Dunno if im ready to pull those out yet and i dont think i can put the ashes back together for the other one. lol oopz, who said that? So imma bring ( Read more... )

well, tonights events were very amusing. I went to jessicas house but tonight it was different. I met a really nice, cute college boy. He was such a gentleman. It was really nice and he wasnt such a bad kisser either. I was so happy when i got there to feel appreciated by the people there (besides steve), i was nice to him but he wasnt back, so i ( Read more... )

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well i have officailly made my decision, knowing that there is nothing left here for me i am leaving. i am moving away from these shadows that have held me here for 18 long years. letting go of everything and just saying 'im ready" was the most difficult thing to decide but i did it. I have decided to go to oneonta so i am going tobe making quite a ( Read more... )

i have been really thinking about alot of things. What to do with the rest of my life being the most thought about. Okay so i know that i want to go away to colege and i think i am going to head straight for oneonta but the thing is leaving my security behind. I have never lived anywhere but long island for my whole life and now i am leaving, yet ( Read more... )

okay, well i am going to visit oswego soon, i think im gonna go to o neonta tho, i have to really think about what i want. My dad kind awants me to stay home but i dont think i want to. Next he asks imma say but me a new car and i'll stay home. Thats what my manager told me to say. Anyways, im so tired, i worked today, ooh interesting right? but i ( Read more... )

what a relief, my none-stop headaches are gone, it turns out that i have migranes so my doctor gave me some migrane medication today and it works so good. I can actually think for the first time in so long. It feels so nice. At first it wasnt workin and all i felt was nauseous and dizzy and tired. Then i took a bath or whatever and when i got out i ( Read more... )

recently i got accepted to two colleges i applied to, i had a job interview today at the VF factory outlet, my headaches are just about at full strength and i feel like im going insane. I got this rash from something, some kind of allergic reaction...its all over my........well.......arm. Its gross, kinda spotty so my parents said i cant do that ( Read more... )

lately my house has been buzzing with words about california and interviews and moving. It's so hard for me to imagine a "for sale" sign in my front yard. i keep having dreams about it. Its really weird. With all the talk about california my parents have yet to show me their "good job" faces with me being accepted to two colleges now, oswego and ( Read more... )