today is wednesday and it kinda sucked kinda didnt. Well, Sam is not talkin to me but whatever, i dont care but im makin an effort cause im not giving up yet. I can get us a limo for probably like dirt cheap and it'll be cool, we can all still go to prom. And i have another suprise but no one can only, only joe demelfi knows cause he is the one ( Read more... )

today started out pretty well but it didnt end like that. i think today has been one of the worst in a long time. I can only say that because i am crying right now and ic ant remeber the last time i cried. Well, i went to school and everything turned out well until 11:30 when i was supposed to call joe. I realized my cell phone was missing and i ( Read more... )

well today i got up and went to school, sam is MINE!! mine mine mine mine mine. Uhm, after school i slept for a little while then got my fat ass up and got dressed forwork. I worked from 2:30 until 6:30 and then during that time i called Jessica to see if se was okay. It turns out she is back to being Jessica. She is really gonna try to improve ( Read more... )

today was an okay day. As usual i went to work, i came home and ate dinner yadda yadda yadda and then i got a call from Dario. He is so nice i dont know how, but he really is. He was askin all these questions about me about music and stuff but never really talked about himself. For once someone listened to me, i havent had that in a long time. So ( Read more... )

yea its saturday night and i just got home. Tonight was friggin awesome! Or it all started out so. Well, i went to open mic night and saw joe's band, they were awesome, they sounded really really good and then dun dun dun.... i saw my infatuation play. He played "two years later", "object of my affection" and "oops, i did it again", during "oops ( Read more... )

today is obviously saturday, that means jessica is on my list of things to do today... i mean going to her house tonight. So i Told her that i talekd to my docter and she was very proud of me. So now i should get rid of my random mood swings and all that shit, get rid of my panic attacks and my depression in a few weeks. So i dunno, im just scared ( Read more... )

well today i opted to stay home, i didnt feel like going to school and dealing with everything. Jerry asked Sam to prom today and she said yea, so i am the only one left without a date, that feels nice so i dont know if i want to go. and even i did get a date my sister told me i should pay for him, like i can afford to spend a grand on a night. So ( Read more... )

well today was a pretty good day. I got up and went to school, that wasnt the good part, but when ic ame home my sister asked if i wanted to goout to get something to eat for breakfeast. So she and i went out to dinner. It was nice, she and i dont do that very often. BUt she and i talked about alot of stuff and i was really happy. We talked about ( Read more... )

Well today was not very interesting, now eevryone gets to see me at my down time. Today i got real depressed for some reason and it happened while i was at work. I guess its hard to explain this feeling but i'll try, its kinda like you get short of breath and your heart actually hurts and today was the first time i have thought about seriously ( Read more... )

There's a feeling running, rushing ( Read more... )