i'm frustrated with the future. not with school or jobs, but just about my personal life. the older i get, the more fragile things become to me, and the uncertainty of these things gives me anxiety. i'm not vocal about things when it counts, and i'm worried that will be a problem in the end. i miss feeling like there was never going to be an end, ( Read more... )

Even though I act like I don't care, I really do; I miss a few people in my life that have gone absent over the last six months. It almost feels like the people I consider as my best friends have just ditched me. Chex tells me I'm being dramatic when I think of it in that way, but it's really hard not to. It just sucks when you put all this effort ( Read more... )

just yesterday i was complaining how i am always sick. and guess what? after just getting over a terrible cold, i am sick again. is this karma? my cough is disgusting, it's crunchy. i can't even remember what it is like to be healthy anymore. when i get home from school i am taking theraflu and passing out. my body is a mess ( Read more... )

being on a higher dosage of my medicine is beginning to turn me into a bit of a wacko, and my emotions are all over the place. i am thankful this is my last month, and hopefully i will have clear skin, FOR-EVER! i am really happy that i had chex and court to make me feel better. it's nice to have people have your back like that. speaking of which, ( Read more... )

i feel like a jerk

• stay passionate
• be motivated
• love hard
• take risks
• don't sweat the small stuff
• be humble
• don't take things for granted

Feeling good.

i want to become vegetarian again. it's only been a few months but it seems like it will be the hardest thing for me to get back into for whatever reason. i want to frequent the gym more, maybe take some boxing class so i can learn to kick some hoodrat ass, but more so to help control all my stress and anger i so frequently accumulate. i want to ( Read more... )

i am feeling weird. one minute i feel so incredibly confident about life, and the next i am one indecisive mess. i really don't know what i want anymore, which isn't necessarily a bad thing just a really scary thing. i don't know a damn thing. i'm losing friends, adding some. i'm doing shitty in some classes, and kicking ass in others. ehhhh...

DAMN ( Read more... )