I know it's fast becoming a cliche, but I've been left to my own devices, and been thinking too damn much again. In any event, I can't help but reflect on what my life has amounted to. I'm alive today because of the grace and mercy of two sisters who I encountered in a rather complicated way. Is it a saving grace I deserve, though? Have I ( Read more... )

So it's been a while since I last posted here, and there really hasn't been a reason to. Things between my angel and I are.....complicated still, but we are both so happy and the good far outweighs the bad. I just need to grow the fuck up already and accept certain things about the situation I'm currently in. My job sucks beyond bearing, and I'm ( Read more... )

Something I've been pondering lately, (yes, I know I'm just jumping right on in, without acknowledging the fact that I've neglected to update at all like I said I would endeavor to, (and yes, I realize I just did what I said I didn't do in the previous parenthetical statement)), a point, or rather observation, that I felt I should address here of ( Read more... )

Yeah, so I'm updating. Been a long time, I guess. Not the longest mind you, but still kinda long I guess. Works still sucks, back on ten hour shifts. Dunno why I care, but I'm really getting sick of that place. Maybe it's the people. My sister Britney got kicked out of the house in the interim since the last entry. I'd say I missed her if I ( Read more... )

*insert obligatory introduction about pointlessness of updating here* (I just don't have the energy for it right now ( Read more... )

Okay, two hands now. And the keyboard seems to be cooperating now, so I've got that going for me. I dunno what it is, but lately my outlook has been a little different. Nothing specific has changed. I still see no purpose in my continued existence, but I'm not dwelling on it anymore. Your steadfast support throughout your return has stayed my ( Read more... )

Yeah well, here I am. Don't be so disappointed about it. Anyway, inspired by my Goddess, I've decided to update. And here it is ( Read more... )

Question for you, love. Kinda mirrors one you asked me months ago. Would you kill me if I asked you to? I'm completely serious when I ask this. If you aren't going to love me, could you at least hate me? If you care for me at all, then I have to fight. I have to struggle, have to keep trying. And I am, harder than I ever have before. But it ( Read more... )

Yeah, I left it for you. Anywho, I'll leave you to it now. But wait! Look what I can do! Oh, right. You couldn't see that. Trust me, it was impressive. Damn, who knew that creating a diversion online would be so difficult. Bah, to hell with it. Go ahead, if you haven't already ( Read more... )

Updating is becoming increasingly more and more pointless. I know that if you do read, it will be perhaps even weeks after it's posted. In any event, here I am. I had the interviews for those jobs at my work, and didn't get a single one. Not surprising, really. It IS me, after all. Couldn't stand out if my head were on fire. Can't even hold ( Read more... )