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Mar 24, 2004 10:19

today my mom found the list of my heights and weights from birth through age 16. when I was 16, I was 5'5" and weighed 125. I know that my senior year of high school, when I was maybe an inch taller, I weighed something like 135-138. I'm currently 22, 5'6 1/2" and weigh 115. I find this interesting ( Read more... )

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nazimuffin March 24 2004, 14:37:59 UTC

no! you don't. I would seriously be ecstatic if I was only 115.

oceanandmoon March 24 2004, 20:44:29 UTC

thanks for the vote of confidence.

about 115, though. you'd be ecstatic at first, but then it'd fade, like these things do, and you'd want more. I can see my hipbones a little bit now, but dammit I want more, I want to be 110 like I was last fall, I want to be 105 and weigh less than my mother, and I think I'm always gonna want more, and I think that that's just bad.

good grief.

wow! nazimuffin June 8 2004, 20:17:47 UTC

that's SO true... :)

artistseries March 24 2004, 22:12:40 UTC

people always say, wah wah i want to be my high school weight, i havent weighed this since high school, et cetera... my high school weight was terrible... i would love to be 10 lbs less than my lowest high school weight.

oceanandmoon March 25 2004, 20:41:57 UTC

thing is, when I was in high school I was happy with myself. I didn't feel huge and gross all the time. just confident. and now, I weigh more than 20 pounds less than I did at my highest and I feel weaker and more tired, plus now I have this awful compulsion to purge and this awful obsession with food and what I eat and when and how. I'm just not sure if being thinner is worth the mental and physical changes it'd made in me. I'm still deciding.