In One Two Three, and Goooooo!!!!

(I've been thinking a lot more clearly lately, maybe it's the waking up at 8am or just having the time to read and think ( Read more... )

I flipped a Kayak once. My father, step mom and brother and I went on a Kayak Camping trip up the Willamette starting on the McKenzie. There was a pile of logs and debris in the middle of the river. The water flowed fast close to this pile up. I wanted speed, my brother dared me to go for it. I was 17. I did. I flipped the Kayak, came up backwards ( Read more... )

A person may know themselves better than anyone else. But they still don't have all the answers. How much of my behavior or thinking etc. is a result of my own personality or a result of the social norms, the dreams I was given, the ideas my parents worked hard to install in me as a child? How much of me is me and how much of me is the biases of ( Read more... )

I fell into the trap. Luckily I never got that perfect job because the economy tanked and now I'm being out done by laid off middle class professionals with ten years of experience. But I still fell into the trap of conformity, worry, independence and being dependable ( Read more... )

I keep saying things, er... in this day and age it's more like, I keeping hitting the send button without thinking. I keep saying things that I probably should have just held my tongue instead. What was I thinking? Maybe I just want some people to hate me more and others to think I'm funny, or yet others to think I can see people for who they are? ( Read more... )

Ii had a good day. I feel more like myself and I feel more honest and I feel more centered. It was a good day to start feeling like any other person might feel in this position and to be told it's not something all that weird or unusual. I'm a usual person, navigating the same paths so many have taken before and hopefully learning from history and ( Read more... )

It's been ages since I've written dialogue, or stories of any sort. Now all of a sudden the only stuff coming to my mind are conversations I wish I could have IRL but wont. Conversations that tell me who I really am, or at least who I wish I could believe I am, how I imagine myself. Conversations that forgive me, tell me I'm okay, that I'm like ( Read more... )

My Step mother is pregnant with child. That's right I will have a 4th sibling at 24. I'm not real wild about the idea, but what the hell I already have a 31 yr old sister and a 5 year old brother with a 22 yr old bro in the middle. We could all be each others parents or lovers, my parents are both married to others with significant 10 + age gaps ( Read more... )

Wow, Train, LOVE. I love the train. I'm never riding the train without a journal to write it. I get so much me time, thinking time on the train, it's amazing. Of course now I don't have a record of these awesome thoughts of mine ( Read more... )